不让我吃就算了。。。

刚打完三个月的财务管理报告书，累得睡了两个小时半，错过了我的“三菜一汤”。。。
不是晚餐哦，使ntv7的节目。但是同时我真的错过了我家里的三菜一汤。
只剩饭和汤了。。。而且汤是甜汤。。。粉葛杞子红枣汤。。。饭~软糯软糯的，唉。。。
爸说：今天别吃了，喝汤算了。。
我说：炒个蛋炒饭也行啊。。。
妈说：你不知道炒个饭要用很多油吗？你的身材都这样了你还要吃那么高热量的东西。。。
我说：好啦不吃啦，要每次这样对我人身攻击吗？
姐说：你拿那个汤捞饭就吃了吧。。。
我说：我不想吃这样的饭啦，一天下来都累死了午餐也没吃多少，全身酸痛无力还要逼我吃我不喜欢吃的东西。。。
爸说：你的身材这样你就不要吃饭了，喝汤就行了。。。
我大喊：我不吃啦！平时就不想吃的时候你们就逼我吃东西，我现在很想吃些像样的东西你们又叫我不要吃！什么错的时间做错的东西？

不让我吃就算了，我不想吃了。。。。

jieyu, you must be tough...

"i've lost my friend..."
"but you still have be tough to face it.no big deal ok?"
"it is a big deal..."
"no, it's not, unless you take it seriously and stubbornly..."
"i won't get over it..."
"you will....it will go away quite soon"
"i wished i never looked at it and comment anything..."
"ya, now you know you could never be frank at anything..."
"i guess i had my punishment for that.."
"you sure did..."

competition 13/14 of march

i couldn't help with my eyes watering at edges...for the 1st time i saw our team in the competition i feel very proud of them.unexperienced and young, no one to guide them or to comfort them.they were alone in the middle of the scene.they did brave and calm.they couldn't have helped it because time is always insufficient.they were just 1st timers and some had even less practising.they showed courage and i just felt sorry for not being able to let them feel secure with what others think of them.i will always be in the team with you all...you all had improved in leaps and bounds and you can improve more.i have faith in you.don't feel sad for failure,you all must 化悲愤为力量。i will be with you all the time.i can handle the blame.
number 5's,don't feel isolated.it is a time for you to learn and in the end you may find you've learn't more than you've thought.it is just that 1234 are doing hands on and you are spectating their mistakes and etc.do you know that 旁观者清？
i summarized my feelings into tears.you've all worked hard.and yet things might go wrong.it is okay.we will strive this together.we want to see you all succeed.for you, yourself and us.and people sometimes just didn't show their expressions on their faces.don't misunderstand them.just forget about it and it will be ok.

yay!

school is over at last....hols coming... and the big day!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy... went to parade and came back home... going to someone's house....excited n worried ...
nothing to worry de lar....
maybe you should take more precautions....
there is no need to stress urself out this....
being careful is not wrong...
sigh....
then i guess i'll still live in the two way talking until the day after tomorow ends....

camp!!!!!!!

i am so excited about camp... really! it makes me so happy when it is time to gather with my mates again and have training together...it's our turn to organize it this year and i hopefully wished that my mates and i will organize a very good camp...
there is sooo much things to do and i can't wait for our meeting deciding what to do and what makes this camp special...i just can't wait for exams to finish... i am already looking at the booklets and have wild ideas running in and out of my brain....now i feel that studies are so boring to look at even they are important...i used to find studies interesting at the fact i always learn new things from studies but now doing hands-on on something else is even more thrilling and exciting and satisfiying...
i am waiting for the camp...i am waiting....

popularity

i have some issues on this.... don't know whether it is suitable to be posted on blog anot...too many dangerous people around already...argh!!!!!!!! kenot trust them de....
1st... popularity of my friend...
feel small when standing beside her.... but all of a sudden i am blur on what her fans like about her...so why do they admire her? no sense.....two eyes one nose two ears one mouth... talking oso ben ben di, walking kk di, everytime dunno what to do pupils become very big thats all i know she is good at....but somehow her popularity among juniors makes me feel.....creepy.... is it ok to be popular?
2nd... my status for the time being...
supporting rates went down... not able to tell you what the situation is but it is mostly politics as you can see...(supporting rates...)just didn't know whether the people who said support me realy support me anot...too many fakes.... do we have to face a lot of fakes in these situations?
3rd...the population of my society is increasing....
oh no!!!!! this is supposed to be the most hard thing to deal with ever...i din wish that the population will decrease but think of the work had to be done.....
issues to deal with.....
drives people insane...
when are we going...
to achieve and grace....