ok, this is something that i feel i must say about it today... many people had told me that they think i am over confident or in another phrase" 串" in my results when i was interviewed by the press. so actually i really do know that i am going to get 8As when my friend told me she got 8As too... it was an hour before i went to get my result... so when i said that it was "预料之中" i don't think it is a matter to be considered as "串". don't understand why make a fuss out of it.. maybe it may looks like i am very proud or something like that but it is the true thoughts.... does it really matter? sometimes i know that people say i really look 很嚣张, have to say that i'm working through it. but please don't put words into my mouth as it is (for me ) considered very impolite. to the people who supported me before but now had done the opposite, proud or not, up to you to decide.
there is a quote" not everyone is perfect, and no one can ever make everyone happy."
i believed in it, and hope it keeps motivating me and keeping me tough for the challenges upcoming... to my friends, i have no intention to hurt you or insult you or whatever you say with my words... not everyone is bidded with this "greeting", so don't add a fuss to yourself...
prous or not, up to you...
2009年12月26日星期六
2009年12月25日星期五
cake , cream and... sigh....
today woke up at 7.10 ying chuing and family still sleeping. ying chuing very very seldom talk to me today... dunno why... in the afternoon we started to make the cake. 1st was to beat the egg whites and sugar and cream of tartar until stiff like foam like la...then there is a very very slow beater which merosakkan all the egg....addtional factors were there was drops of milk and chocolate in the egg bowl which when the cake come out it looks like punctured tyre. we decided to do another cake... then the second cake was better but it still din mengembang like it shud be, so we HAD to use it anyway...
now the focus on the mousse cream.it was quite nice when we tasted it, but it looks very liquidy form. so we beat the mixture again n again. but i think it is a bit over-beaten that it turns into very very tiny luimps... guess it is the milk fats gua.... but it looks overall OK!
then it is time to put the mousse over the cake. the second cake was oven hot but yc already pout the mousse on it... and the mixture suddenly melted in front of our eyes... there is another problem coz the cake is too small in the container as it should be ngam ngam to hold the mousse nd cake in place...then i dun care already... i put on the mousse and finish it up and throw it into the refrigerator... wonder if yc's parents will scold me if they knew the cake was hot?
then there is a coating of chocolate outside of the cake which i am not going to say anything about it coz i havent done it with yc yet...
a day of cake... cream ... and sigh....
at least i had revised some of my first aid manual. no more sighing afterwards... going home soon... back to the old life...there's something i am very worried about is going to happen...hope it doesn't happen... maybe it will be over before it happens in front of my eye...sighs... can't help it...feel a tingling sensation of sorry over my body...
now the focus on the mousse cream.it was quite nice when we tasted it, but it looks very liquidy form. so we beat the mixture again n again. but i think it is a bit over-beaten that it turns into very very tiny luimps... guess it is the milk fats gua.... but it looks overall OK!
then it is time to put the mousse over the cake. the second cake was oven hot but yc already pout the mousse on it... and the mixture suddenly melted in front of our eyes... there is another problem coz the cake is too small in the container as it should be ngam ngam to hold the mousse nd cake in place...then i dun care already... i put on the mousse and finish it up and throw it into the refrigerator... wonder if yc's parents will scold me if they knew the cake was hot?
then there is a coating of chocolate outside of the cake which i am not going to say anything about it coz i havent done it with yc yet...
a day of cake... cream ... and sigh....
at least i had revised some of my first aid manual. no more sighing afterwards... going home soon... back to the old life...there's something i am very worried about is going to happen...hope it doesn't happen... maybe it will be over before it happens in front of my eye...sighs... can't help it...feel a tingling sensation of sorry over my body...
2009年12月22日星期二
amc annual training camp 2009
i love st john camp. I LOVE ST JOHN AMC.
any camps that will stay fresh in my mind forever is always amc annusl training camp organised by st john amc.this year is the best that ever happened in my life. i never felt so touched by my members or anyone before. i feel the burning spirit in my heart. anyone who feels the same way i believe we are from the same family, we have the same beliefs and the same aim. i wanted to work hard and show my committment. i want everyone that join feels the passion and we will all work together for the best. this is the time we prove ourselves girls. form 3, are we ready to obey commands and to lead the rest?
here is a small part of my group yells:
so violet, we follow we learn we lead the way!
just like senior chuah said, form 1 we follow, form 2 we learn, form 3 we start to lead.
time is ticking, we must strive and persevere, form 3s!
any camps that will stay fresh in my mind forever is always amc annusl training camp organised by st john amc.this year is the best that ever happened in my life. i never felt so touched by my members or anyone before. i feel the burning spirit in my heart. anyone who feels the same way i believe we are from the same family, we have the same beliefs and the same aim. i wanted to work hard and show my committment. i want everyone that join feels the passion and we will all work together for the best. this is the time we prove ourselves girls. form 3, are we ready to obey commands and to lead the rest?
here is a small part of my group yells:
so violet, we follow we learn we lead the way!
just like senior chuah said, form 1 we follow, form 2 we learn, form 3 we start to lead.
time is ticking, we must strive and persevere, form 3s!
2009年11月18日星期三
self study versus tuition
hope the person won't mind what i'm talking about...
i really can't think of a suitable word to express my fuss over this issue...
it isn't my problem at all actually but i sincerely hope for the best for you..
what does it have to do with a tuition center's popularity and a student's achievements in academic?
like what i said, when is it the time parents let their children help themselves with a little tiny bit of independence?
if you think tuition center helps the child more, does that mean you don't trust your child's abilities to study on their own?
it truly hurts a heart when people are not being trusted by others...
everyone needs a chance to learn to grow, even if they fail, they learn...
if they never lose a step before, by the time they realize they are going to lose balance, surely they won't know what to do...
if they make you a promise, why don't let them prove themselves to you?
over protective or taking precautions on failing doesn't work in the long term..
please believe that you child can, they have been waiting to let you see the sparkle in themselves...
wont it be much happier a child will be if they live in a trustworthy family?
by the way, a tuition center will be helpful but it is just an additional help in students studies...
SURELY NOT A TOOL TO TORTURE STUDENTS SOULS...
i really can't think of a suitable word to express my fuss over this issue...
it isn't my problem at all actually but i sincerely hope for the best for you..
what does it have to do with a tuition center's popularity and a student's achievements in academic?
like what i said, when is it the time parents let their children help themselves with a little tiny bit of independence?
if you think tuition center helps the child more, does that mean you don't trust your child's abilities to study on their own?
it truly hurts a heart when people are not being trusted by others...
everyone needs a chance to learn to grow, even if they fail, they learn...
if they never lose a step before, by the time they realize they are going to lose balance, surely they won't know what to do...
if they make you a promise, why don't let them prove themselves to you?
over protective or taking precautions on failing doesn't work in the long term..
please believe that you child can, they have been waiting to let you see the sparkle in themselves...
wont it be much happier a child will be if they live in a trustworthy family?
by the way, a tuition center will be helpful but it is just an additional help in students studies...
SURELY NOT A TOOL TO TORTURE STUDENTS SOULS...
2009年11月14日星期六
independent? dependent?
have to borrow chew's computer to blog.. so charm... but anyway thanks chew...
now i am growing dependent onto chew... is it?
tomoro going to genting... not very happy now coz the person that i asked din go...not her fault actually but i still a bit angry... dunno for what...
her parents? maybe... they say she mus'nt stay out of their sight... no far journeys...
guess she said alot and made them angry... they are taking her away to KL for the rest of the hols...blah blah blah...
i guess they dun wan their daughter to stay friends with someone like me as i knew they call me 野孩子.. i dont think whats wrong being a 野孩子, at least i am independent...
what makes a person grow is the experience, the pain, the satisfaction they get from all what they have gone through... do you think keeping a child until they were adults means they are already safe to fly on their own?
NO.
if they dont have the chance to learn, never will they be able to fly...
do you think a child will be automatically independent when they become adults?
absolutely not...
so why keep them at home?
let them explore and try on their own....
danger comes, but it is more dangerous if the child doesn't know how to face danger...
independent? dependent?
i'd wish her parents saw my blog....
treat her the way she deserves to be, not the way u all wanted her to be...
now i am growing dependent onto chew... is it?
tomoro going to genting... not very happy now coz the person that i asked din go...not her fault actually but i still a bit angry... dunno for what...
her parents? maybe... they say she mus'nt stay out of their sight... no far journeys...
guess she said alot and made them angry... they are taking her away to KL for the rest of the hols...blah blah blah...
i guess they dun wan their daughter to stay friends with someone like me as i knew they call me 野孩子.. i dont think whats wrong being a 野孩子, at least i am independent...
what makes a person grow is the experience, the pain, the satisfaction they get from all what they have gone through... do you think keeping a child until they were adults means they are already safe to fly on their own?
NO.
if they dont have the chance to learn, never will they be able to fly...
do you think a child will be automatically independent when they become adults?
absolutely not...
so why keep them at home?
let them explore and try on their own....
danger comes, but it is more dangerous if the child doesn't know how to face danger...
independent? dependent?
i'd wish her parents saw my blog....
treat her the way she deserves to be, not the way u all wanted her to be...
2009年11月10日星期二
my blog.... wuwu....
guess what, i cant online anymore....
the stupid person who locked his wireless and i cant steal it to online anymur....
but today is exception coz i am using ppl's computer to blog.
i like to blog.... anyway, feel so sad cant blog anymore....
viewed sum ppl's blog... find it very interesting and feel very zi bei for my blog as it is quite boring or very boring...
sumtimes i feel so sorry for myself....
but from now onwards i will try to online haha...
to write my blog more as those very interesting things that happened cant be written and recorded if i dont blog....( also that means i am too lazy to pick up a pencil and write..)
hope you will all still try and see whether got new post anot...haha...
ps: i am sending dedications to our drum trainers as they taught us the performance for our AMC's 71th aniversary... thanks to 黎适吾, 罗扬耀,刘振成, and the last one is erm... iforgot his name but it is sumwhat like chong zhe ming if not mistaken.
i am going now... wish i don't fish infront of others lo.... hehez...
the stupid person who locked his wireless and i cant steal it to online anymur....
but today is exception coz i am using ppl's computer to blog.
i like to blog.... anyway, feel so sad cant blog anymore....
viewed sum ppl's blog... find it very interesting and feel very zi bei for my blog as it is quite boring or very boring...
sumtimes i feel so sorry for myself....
but from now onwards i will try to online haha...
to write my blog more as those very interesting things that happened cant be written and recorded if i dont blog....( also that means i am too lazy to pick up a pencil and write..)
hope you will all still try and see whether got new post anot...haha...
ps: i am sending dedications to our drum trainers as they taught us the performance for our AMC's 71th aniversary... thanks to 黎适吾, 罗扬耀,刘振成, and the last one is erm... iforgot his name but it is sumwhat like chong zhe ming if not mistaken.
i am going now... wish i don't fish infront of others lo.... hehez...
2009年10月18日星期日
空虚--虚荣--空虚
浏览了别人的部落格，
写的文章都很诗意，
很有深度，
很美。。。。
能希望自己也是这样吗？
我到底做了什么？
我到底会不会是个普通的人呢？
到底在这一切的烦恼中周旋，
对我有什么好处呢？
世上没有绝对的朋友，
更没有绝对的敌人。
那现在所结交的朋友，
是不是代表没有天长地久？
是不是意识到最后还是剩下---
一场梦？
我的一生就是一场游戏一场梦？
为什么，
我不能有件让我自己感到自豪的事？
一件大家都认为我很在行，
很特别，很本事。。。。
这是虚荣？还是空虚？
到现在才知道，
一切虚荣的背后，
究竟只是一场空虚。。。
写的文章都很诗意，
很有深度，
很美。。。。
能希望自己也是这样吗？
我到底做了什么？
我到底会不会是个普通的人呢？
到底在这一切的烦恼中周旋，
对我有什么好处呢？
世上没有绝对的朋友，
更没有绝对的敌人。
那现在所结交的朋友，
是不是代表没有天长地久？
是不是意识到最后还是剩下---
一场梦？
我的一生就是一场游戏一场梦？
为什么，
我不能有件让我自己感到自豪的事？
一件大家都认为我很在行，
很特别，很本事。。。。
这是虚荣？还是空虚？
到现在才知道，
一切虚荣的背后，
究竟只是一场空虚。。。
midnight fever....
guess what? i am on blogging at midnight, listening to songs on Youtube... even though i feel tired i still stay up during midnights... what the heck has happened to me actually? i don't know argh.....it is maybe i feared that if i wake up, things will not be like what i remembered yesterday, all the nicest things in the world is left behind me , left in yesterday and i have no choice but keep on going on today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow.....i can't go back, i can just dream of it in my dreams.... i'm just a little too not over you....
2009年10月16日星期五
snapped...
it was a turmoil of feelings since a week before pmr... i felt restless and angry and furious and uncomfortable during these long days... eventhough i looked cheerful and cheesy all the way, facing everyone i met, i still incur in a war between myself. i know that maybe i am over-sensitive for the moment but i still can't help to stop thinking of every detail said to me and how it hurt my feelings etc...i realised that if i talk to someone they might just laugh over and say:" don't think that much" and it doesn't help at all... i feel frightened for myself... helpless standing infront of the rushing bus, waiting for it to roll over me, without a thought of thinking to runaway from the spot.i keep things to myself, i talk to myself.... nothing seems normal that time... sometimes its hard to be friends which are way too unsensitive...have to say that i don't like to befriend an extremely sensitive person and i don't want to part of the group too, but sometimes i still get angry with those people who doesn't think about what others are thinking. they maybe just treat u as anyone else and think you could never be different or feel blue anytime. but it takes just 2 minutes for me to wake up and tell myself that i shouldnt blame them as they are my most supportive friends, i will forgive them evenwhen they make terrible mistakes. i can take it as i don't want to lose them. there goes my emotions, locked up safe and sound in my deep heart's core....
here comes the problem... whenever people don't treat me as the same way they do, i feel pushed away...it is the most unacceptable feeling in my life as i can't live in a silent environment all day long...i longed for the care at certain times when i feel empty, but i can't show it out, feeling that maybe no one cares...i weep once 4 that feeling to spill out and being washed away with icy cold 2 am water...
right now i am writing all these history, i feel like 4 that time i might have snapped if i blurt it out, you know, high pressured gasses have very strong energy release... better if it was let go some by some...it melts away...
i haven't snap, and i wont in the future... for the bright is always shining in the front of me, guiding me to hold upon tolerance and perseverance...
jie yu, do you know that you've done a great job on self control?
you certainly deserves a treat...haha.....
here comes the problem... whenever people don't treat me as the same way they do, i feel pushed away...it is the most unacceptable feeling in my life as i can't live in a silent environment all day long...i longed for the care at certain times when i feel empty, but i can't show it out, feeling that maybe no one cares...i weep once 4 that feeling to spill out and being washed away with icy cold 2 am water...
right now i am writing all these history, i feel like 4 that time i might have snapped if i blurt it out, you know, high pressured gasses have very strong energy release... better if it was let go some by some...it melts away...
i haven't snap, and i wont in the future... for the bright is always shining in the front of me, guiding me to hold upon tolerance and perseverance...
jie yu, do you know that you've done a great job on self control?
you certainly deserves a treat...haha.....
a little comment on my own blog....
i found out that my blog was a disaster after looking at it... it wasn't organized and i wasn't satisfied with my writing recently... shows that i am having a drop on readers and my own creativity too....haha...maybe it wasn't interesting enough and people yawn when looking at those posts... but what reminds me is that the motive of starting a blog is not just for others purpose of reading, its the satisfactory after writing a post and see it on your somewhat like own website. but i feel there is hollow in me as some of it just consists of crap.and i can't see me improving on how to write better posts or short stories or just an expression of feelings ...it is a very unpredictable bom in me and will explode if i can't find the correct button and push it to stop the timing... maybe all i need is just some reassurance....someone just help me out of this.... please....
the nursery..
这就是我一个童年的梦。常看到一些英国的故事书，那儿的小孩都有自己的游乐室（somewhat called a nursery）。他们的玩具都放那儿。小时候总觉得英国的小孩都有很多玩具，满满的一柜。故事里都是那样说的。然后到了晚上，没被收拾的玩具就这样散落在地上，等待明天主人再来陪它们玩。非常令人羡慕的事，那些玩具都看起来很好玩，我以前的玩具多数属于智力型的，不会有娃娃还是软软的毛熊， 也没有风筝小农场和小拉车。更不会有人送我满满一袋的甜食让我一面吃一面玩。看着别人故事里头的幸福，自己非常的憧憬能有那样的游戏室。
五六岁的时候，家里的墙壁都是肮脏的浅青色，因为我很喜欢涂鸦，而且不是用擦得掉的铅笔，而是用蜡笔和水彩大肆作画。作的画当然抽象，是一堆堆的颜色和线条，杂乱无章的。我要的游戏室，是贴着美丽浅蓝色的天空的壁纸。我非常喜欢蓝天白云，因为那颜色很柔和很舒服。游戏室里当然要有我喜欢的玩具，而且不会出现枪械之类的玩具，因为会和那游戏室产生强烈的个性对比（虽然我那时也对打仗相扑弹石头感到很兴趣）。然后最想要得是个大大的毛熊，虽然自己天生对灰尘敏感，毛熊稍有点脏我就不能与它接触，但还是很喜欢。要胖胖的，毛要摸起来滑滑的，还一定要是褐色的，不能是粉红浅蓝还是白色。
这张图是我画的，因为下午觉得自己发呆的次数好像已经变成个老人似的，就拿起画册，把久违的画面画出来。虽然画的不怎么样，但是看上去会有那种与从前的梦重逢的幸福和喜悦。虽然最后我还是没能建立自己的游戏室，但是那残留的一缕编织那梦的毛线，是个美丽的纪念。
2009年10月10日星期六
exam, Parade, Twilight, AND sweets.....
这就是我这个考试月所有一直想和一直做的几件事。通常大家一看就知道那是个败家女不然就是考试一团糟的人。也不知道那是不是真的。。。不过把心完完全全放在读书上对我来说是不可能的任务。（惨了，专注力特别糟， 有人还说我可能在别人和我求婚的时候跟那个人说：“诶，对面那个人也在求婚耶，要不要去看看？”之类的糟糕情况出现。）
考试前个星期把twilight & eclipse都看完了，平均每一百面速度是四十五分钟左右吧，一下子就看完。并没有很被吸引的感觉， 只是觉得作者很厉害，跟哈利波特有异曲同工之妙，都很魔幻。。。不过我本人比较喜欢这套书，因为哈利波特原版我还没看过。。。（根本不能比较嘛， 笨蛋）
一面看书/读书，嘴里都是吃着糖和巧克力。。。看过医学报告，人类的脑部消耗的能量大多是葡萄糖，摄取适量使大脑不疲累， 阅读能更持久。。。也可能加强记忆力。。。（其实都只是个借口来吃糖罢了）别人送了很多嘛。。。TOBERLONE & CLOUD 9我爱你！！！！！
parade是我考完地理的那天去的， 我也应该去的，因为我能踏入那里的机会不是很多，可以说是没几次。跟朋友走几下碰到一块时，竟然被她的手毛的静电电到！她竟然什么都没感觉到。。。走远一点是她靠过来跟我说话又被那静电的威力伤害道我脆弱的神经线。。。最后拍拍她的肩膀想告诉她“不要靠过来了你手上的静电会伤到我”时，她大喊一声然后跳离我五十厘米之远。我知道发生了什么事，结果在parade的空旷走廊上狂笑不止，结果两个傻婆就在走廊上演警察追贼的剧情，结果警察（我）成功用电棒（手）制止了那个贼（盈欣）逃跑。。。我们再map accessories 买了胶纸。。。我其实不是那种逛首饰店或可爱装饰品店的女生， 平时都只会看吃的（真没用，难怪你那么胖，该死）， 但是就是不知道被哪个巫婆下了降头， 买了如此可爱的胶纸。散卖一个五十仙，两个包在一起的买一块一？不是贵了十仙吗？！ 谁那么笨去买两个包在一起的？还用问，当然就是那个巫婆咯。。。哈哈。。。不过要感谢那巫婆拖我进去买， 才会得到意想不到的收获。。。我的朋友们，你们的生日礼物有着落啦，哈哈哈。。。（就是那些散卖五十仙， 两个----（废话一堆）的胶纸啦）不要等大着眼睛看着我，那些生日即将到来的朋友们， 我没有懒到送你一个五十仙的礼物的。。。
至于考试嘛。。。不知道要说什么好。。。 不像没准备也不像有准备的。。。。是有点考就考的心态。不知道会不会是我的致命伤呢？我不知道。。。其实除了国语，别的干得还不赖的。。。
刚跟贼吵架了，警察洗手不干了。。。。。电棒跌在地上，滚到一边去了。。。。。
考试前个星期把twilight & eclipse都看完了，平均每一百面速度是四十五分钟左右吧，一下子就看完。并没有很被吸引的感觉， 只是觉得作者很厉害，跟哈利波特有异曲同工之妙，都很魔幻。。。不过我本人比较喜欢这套书，因为哈利波特原版我还没看过。。。（根本不能比较嘛， 笨蛋）
一面看书/读书，嘴里都是吃着糖和巧克力。。。看过医学报告，人类的脑部消耗的能量大多是葡萄糖，摄取适量使大脑不疲累， 阅读能更持久。。。也可能加强记忆力。。。（其实都只是个借口来吃糖罢了）别人送了很多嘛。。。TOBERLONE & CLOUD 9我爱你！！！！！
parade是我考完地理的那天去的， 我也应该去的，因为我能踏入那里的机会不是很多，可以说是没几次。跟朋友走几下碰到一块时，竟然被她的手毛的静电电到！她竟然什么都没感觉到。。。走远一点是她靠过来跟我说话又被那静电的威力伤害道我脆弱的神经线。。。最后拍拍她的肩膀想告诉她“不要靠过来了你手上的静电会伤到我”时，她大喊一声然后跳离我五十厘米之远。我知道发生了什么事，结果在parade的空旷走廊上狂笑不止，结果两个傻婆就在走廊上演警察追贼的剧情，结果警察（我）成功用电棒（手）制止了那个贼（盈欣）逃跑。。。我们再map accessories 买了胶纸。。。我其实不是那种逛首饰店或可爱装饰品店的女生， 平时都只会看吃的（真没用，难怪你那么胖，该死）， 但是就是不知道被哪个巫婆下了降头， 买了如此可爱的胶纸。散卖一个五十仙，两个包在一起的买一块一？不是贵了十仙吗？！ 谁那么笨去买两个包在一起的？还用问，当然就是那个巫婆咯。。。哈哈。。。不过要感谢那巫婆拖我进去买， 才会得到意想不到的收获。。。我的朋友们，你们的生日礼物有着落啦，哈哈哈。。。（就是那些散卖五十仙， 两个----（废话一堆）的胶纸啦）不要等大着眼睛看着我，那些生日即将到来的朋友们， 我没有懒到送你一个五十仙的礼物的。。。
至于考试嘛。。。不知道要说什么好。。。 不像没准备也不像有准备的。。。。是有点考就考的心态。不知道会不会是我的致命伤呢？我不知道。。。其实除了国语，别的干得还不赖的。。。
刚跟贼吵架了，警察洗手不干了。。。。。电棒跌在地上，滚到一边去了。。。。。
a fresh start of our friendship....
the old friendship whithered, stood in the cold morning, drops of dew frozen on the branches of the brown crooked trunk. it looked miserable, yet it was past, a history in the new spring dawn....
as hours pass by, sprouts shoot silently from the dry depleted grounds, forcing their way to meet the first ray of sunlight, twisting and turning, strive and perservere till the sound of soil breaking, the moment of hope was heard...only one little plant succeeded....
what a tiny plant. can it hold still to the ground even? will it survive through the wild busy environment that never rests? we'll never know... but it is a hope...
" thou shall live with dignity and honour" said the tiny plant.
in the night,
it feeds on the old whithered trunk, juicing the smallest drop of nutrient from the brown wrinkled bark...
in the day,
it grows slowly, enjoying the light yet satisfyingly warm ray of sun...
in the night,
it cries silently, listening to the sorrow of the nightingale, singing an eerie tune of nocturne, afraid, yet helpless...
in the day,
it cherishes the hardworking ants which lived neighbouring side by side with it, in and out working all day long...
the most ordinary plant that lead an ordinary life, succeeded in living in this wild violent world...
and thats the fresh start of our friendship....nothing special, but long lasting....
as hours pass by, sprouts shoot silently from the dry depleted grounds, forcing their way to meet the first ray of sunlight, twisting and turning, strive and perservere till the sound of soil breaking, the moment of hope was heard...only one little plant succeeded....
what a tiny plant. can it hold still to the ground even? will it survive through the wild busy environment that never rests? we'll never know... but it is a hope...
" thou shall live with dignity and honour" said the tiny plant.
in the night,
it feeds on the old whithered trunk, juicing the smallest drop of nutrient from the brown wrinkled bark...
in the day,
it grows slowly, enjoying the light yet satisfyingly warm ray of sun...
in the night,
it cries silently, listening to the sorrow of the nightingale, singing an eerie tune of nocturne, afraid, yet helpless...
in the day,
it cherishes the hardworking ants which lived neighbouring side by side with it, in and out working all day long...
the most ordinary plant that lead an ordinary life, succeeded in living in this wild violent world...
and thats the fresh start of our friendship....nothing special, but long lasting....
2009年9月26日星期六
a word for all my blog viewers...
actually some of my post are just part of creative writing, don't think it really happened on me.... so don't be over enthusiastic or shocked or have a heart attack... eventhough i have been qualified as a little first aider may not be able to save your life in time....
tagged ( pmr students take note: studies 1st haha...act i am 1 of them too, hehe...)
被点到必填，
不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。
被点到的:
1.jia chi
2.yuen si
3. yie syuen
4. chuan yi
5.jo ee
6. hui yi (chai)
7. anjoe
8.xin yu
9. rachel lee
10.wan ning
01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: you will never know if they knew each other right?
02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: erm....girl, woman, auntie,sister,old lady?
03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]: err, you can ask her herself......
04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: got got....she has a bro and a sis, both younger than her..
05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: liew
06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]: hmm.... i think yes coz she is very helpful n cute...
07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: he chase people got gua, people chase him.... have to think about it....
08-[ 承上2号呢? ]:got gua ppl say she very pretty...
09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: hmm.... pink gua....( have i got it correct?)
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]: (from barbie fairytopia) They are the friends that havent met.... haha....
11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: 30/10 (do you mind if i write ur year?)
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: amc
13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: since primary school, dunno how, she is quite famous.
14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: 27 days if not mistaken....
15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]: no but got kacau her at school.....
16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: erm..... seldom chat....hehe...
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: met him once oni, and he was real cool...~~~~-_-!!!
18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:nice n out going( miss the camp....)
19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: dun forget the important word ... she is cuckoo...
20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: no...
1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: miss nj, my mentor ,cousellor and friend always...
2. 你们认识多久呢: in detailed almost one year and 5 months.. be came close after camp and trip to kl.....
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: of coz, told u she is my mentor counsellor and friend lor....
4. 你与他(她)的关系是: lots de wor.....committee n member la, senior and junior la, counsellor and being couselled de lar, audience and dj la, secret keeper n secret teller....lots lots lots....
5.你覺得他(她）的個性如何: hmm....sometimes i find it very complicated.... but caring and supporting all the while......
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: guess is hang out with....................her frens n sms n write blog gua...( act i oso dunno) :p
to those who is being tagged, you re not xiao peng you to me la (except 4 the younger than me 1s), and hope i will see ur tags with interesting answers haha....)
不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。
被点到的:
1.jia chi
2.yuen si
3. yie syuen
4. chuan yi
5.jo ee
6. hui yi (chai)
7. anjoe
8.xin yu
9. rachel lee
10.wan ning
01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: you will never know if they knew each other right?
02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: erm....girl, woman, auntie,sister,old lady?
03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]: err, you can ask her herself......
04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: got got....she has a bro and a sis, both younger than her..
05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: liew
06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]: hmm.... i think yes coz she is very helpful n cute...
07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: he chase people got gua, people chase him.... have to think about it....
08-[ 承上2号呢? ]:got gua ppl say she very pretty...
09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: hmm.... pink gua....( have i got it correct?)
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]: (from barbie fairytopia) They are the friends that havent met.... haha....
11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: 30/10 (do you mind if i write ur year?)
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: amc
13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: since primary school, dunno how, she is quite famous.
14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: 27 days if not mistaken....
15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]: no but got kacau her at school.....
16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: erm..... seldom chat....hehe...
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: met him once oni, and he was real cool...~~~~-_-!!!
18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]:nice n out going( miss the camp....)
19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: dun forget the important word ... she is cuckoo...
20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: no...
1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: miss nj, my mentor ,cousellor and friend always...
2. 你们认识多久呢: in detailed almost one year and 5 months.. be came close after camp and trip to kl.....
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: of coz, told u she is my mentor counsellor and friend lor....
4. 你与他(她)的关系是: lots de wor.....committee n member la, senior and junior la, counsellor and being couselled de lar, audience and dj la, secret keeper n secret teller....lots lots lots....
5.你覺得他(她）的個性如何: hmm....sometimes i find it very complicated.... but caring and supporting all the while......
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: guess is hang out with....................her frens n sms n write blog gua...( act i oso dunno) :p
to those who is being tagged, you re not xiao peng you to me la (except 4 the younger than me 1s), and hope i will see ur tags with interesting answers haha....)
2009年9月20日星期日
life is extremely complicated, NO. YOU are the complicated one......
life IS complicated.....
some people might say that i watch too much movies and dramas such as gossip girl and desperate housewives, but i certainly don't doubt that things like that do occur in life...
you are torn up into pieces, just because you can't get over yourself.
you are heart broken, because of the matter that u can't stand anymore.
you cry, over endless times, because of the people you love, you care doesn't show that they know or feel your presence and the things you've given...
those silly people that were love drunk, it doesn't mean that your life is COMPLICATED.
those people that have mums nagging away, it doesn't mean that you are bound down forever.
those people who have extreme pressure on studies, it doesn't mean books are all....
it is YOU , who conquer all these wanted and unwanted situations....every complicated thing is drawn towards you due to your continuous thinking and negative mindset. its the law of the universe, everything you picture you fear the most comes right after you. the energy sent out was strong enough to change the magnetic field of your destiny. the more you think, the stronger the energy, thus the thing comes faster than you can imagine...
SO, life isn't complicated, YOU made it complicated.
make it easier, won't you?
let the innocent, pure soul who lives in you fear nothing, but gain happiness all the time.
think more of the lovely spirits of people, the aromatic food we taste, the warmth of clothing on our body, the love that was presented to you.
everything is easy...
every past shows that you have lead a complicated life, you think more of it, it becomes more complicated.... let the thoughts out of your mind, let them soar high in the sky....
DON'T THINK ANYMORE, REST, GAIN PEACE....
EVERYTHING IS EASY, SIMPLE, AND TRUSTWORTHY.....
some people might say that i watch too much movies and dramas such as gossip girl and desperate housewives, but i certainly don't doubt that things like that do occur in life...
you are torn up into pieces, just because you can't get over yourself.
you are heart broken, because of the matter that u can't stand anymore.
you cry, over endless times, because of the people you love, you care doesn't show that they know or feel your presence and the things you've given...
those silly people that were love drunk, it doesn't mean that your life is COMPLICATED.
those people that have mums nagging away, it doesn't mean that you are bound down forever.
those people who have extreme pressure on studies, it doesn't mean books are all....
it is YOU , who conquer all these wanted and unwanted situations....every complicated thing is drawn towards you due to your continuous thinking and negative mindset. its the law of the universe, everything you picture you fear the most comes right after you. the energy sent out was strong enough to change the magnetic field of your destiny. the more you think, the stronger the energy, thus the thing comes faster than you can imagine...
SO, life isn't complicated, YOU made it complicated.
make it easier, won't you?
let the innocent, pure soul who lives in you fear nothing, but gain happiness all the time.
think more of the lovely spirits of people, the aromatic food we taste, the warmth of clothing on our body, the love that was presented to you.
everything is easy...
every past shows that you have lead a complicated life, you think more of it, it becomes more complicated.... let the thoughts out of your mind, let them soar high in the sky....
DON'T THINK ANYMORE, REST, GAIN PEACE....
EVERYTHING IS EASY, SIMPLE, AND TRUSTWORTHY.....
2009年9月12日星期六
面试
今天我去三德中学那儿面试成为学记， 昨晚还叫大哥看到我要记得给我重重的一掌，打醒我。他给了，过后也轮到我去面试了。有两位记者吧？来给我面试，然后就有两位学记在一旁作记录。
她问：请介绍你自己吧。
我说：我是梁洁瑜，就读圣母中学，今年十三岁。（顿时有人瞪大了眼睛着我， 谢谢你哦。。。）哦不是不是，是十五岁。
她问：你怎样认识学记的？
我说：我小学的时候，大概六年级，我的老师有提到她的学生当学记办的活动。。。
她说：我们没有招收小学生的学记的。。。
我说:我老师的学生都是她的ex学生来得。再加上我妈妈也会给我看报纸上的学记的活动啊之 类 的， 就这样接触了学记。
她说：你父母会不会因为你厂参加这些活动很唠唠叨叨？
我说：不会啊，他们都很支持我。
她说：为什么？
我说：要是我学到很多他们都很乐意让我参与这类活动。因为我妈妈是老师。
她说：你妈妈在那里教书？
我说：在三德小学。（我忘了说我妈妈已经退休）
她说：你应该有看我们的青年版吧？
我说：我平时忙得就很少翻报纸。。。（我的大问题来了。）
她说：你很忙？你忙什么呢？学校很多不固定的活动吗？你参加什么课外活动？
我说：我参加圣约翰和华语辩论坊。。。。（之后的我说什么也不是记得很清楚了。）
她说：一个学记也是要多注意也了解一些时事， 而且你参加辩论怎么可能没有看报纸的习惯？这对搜寻资料也是很重要的一环啊。
我说：呃。。。。。。
她说：是上网查资料的吧？
我说：是是是。。。其实我有看电视新闻啦。。。然后我父母也会告诉我最近发生了什么事。
她说：你不能总是靠你的父母这样吧？其实我们的青年版十分钟就看完了。
（之后的在我现在睡醒后都想不起来说了什么了。。。。不好的会议总会很快消失的。。。^^）
我认为这次的面是我做得不太好。太紧张，说话不流畅，甚至会带给人误会。我不会不关心时事，只是报纸是不定时的翻翻而已。然后呢，之前在报告会中就已经说过，做学记会占很多的时间， 然后我就说我很忙。也不知道怎么说。。。。我的校园生活很忙，但我在家的空又没看报纸。。。老实说，我认为他们都会觉得我不太好吧。。。
ps：大哥，你的手掌好大。用你的手弹琴应该很适合吧， 是我第一个想法。哈哈。。。
2009年9月9日星期三
Just wanted to share a story.....
I was supposed to call my friend to accompany her throughout her lonely night, and i promised i will call her after my parents slept.... but that day i feel sick during watching tv, i got some flu pills and the drowsiness kept coming to disturb me.... i HAD to take a nap( which i am also not very sure that i can wake up on time).... i switched off the television, went upstairs, switched on the radio, and set my alarm clock to 12 midnight. i put the alarm clock far away as i know i am going to wake up and switch off the alarm. then i sleep until 1.48am, which was way past 12 midnight. i was awaken by a eerie song.... as you know my friend was waiting for my call, and the song's chorus is 你知道我在等你吗？i was so scared, i broke my promise.........my heart was thumping like wild, 1st is because of the song, 2nd is because my friend could have waited for hours... i rushed downstairs towards the phone, hurt my leg coz i sort of rolled down the stairs like a meatball.....whatever...... i dialed the phone and listened to the ringing sound.....i get scared for not knowing what happens to a extreme sensitive friend like her.... someone picked up the phone, and i heard her crying.........i listened to her cry for a long time, in the dark silent morning... i feel very sorry for letting her down....and i apologized and apologized but in vain.......
this is the akward story of my night..... that morning,that song, my friend, my friend's cry hunted me thoughout the day......i never forget the worst moments ever in my life.....
somehow i have to let it go, as my friend's wound( as she suffered from heart broken, eye irritation, eye swelling, panda eyes and red eyes for 2 days) healed over time.......thanks to the song, for waking me up, or i will lose the friend forever........ and we are as close as ever......
can someone tell me how much is the percentage for an coincidence like that happen?
i wonder............................
this is the akward story of my night..... that morning,that song, my friend, my friend's cry hunted me thoughout the day......i never forget the worst moments ever in my life.....
somehow i have to let it go, as my friend's wound( as she suffered from heart broken, eye irritation, eye swelling, panda eyes and red eyes for 2 days) healed over time.......thanks to the song, for waking me up, or i will lose the friend forever........ and we are as close as ever......
can someone tell me how much is the percentage for an coincidence like that happen?
i wonder............................
2009年9月8日星期二
everything is wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes.....everything i do is wrong............
live in the wrong family.............
live in the wrong mindset..........
do the wrong things.................
live the wrong way..................
eat the wrong food.................
have the wrong weight.........
yes, obese is a no no to my family...........
i am 1 of the O family........
how?
"slim down lo, easy...." says someone.........
maybe you are right.............
i should take things more easy........
not complicated..............
i should think of fats are just fatty acids and glycerol,
not lumps of fat in my body, chained and stained there forever.......
you are right.............
i AM wrong.......
live in the wrong family.............
live in the wrong mindset..........
do the wrong things.................
live the wrong way..................
eat the wrong food.................
have the wrong weight.........
yes, obese is a no no to my family...........
i am 1 of the O family........
how?
"slim down lo, easy...." says someone.........
maybe you are right.............
i should take things more easy........
not complicated..............
i should think of fats are just fatty acids and glycerol,
not lumps of fat in my body, chained and stained there forever.......
you are right.............
i AM wrong.......
2009年8月30日星期日
pressurised.......
u live in this world, and it is a fate that u must have the ability to cope with pressure. there is pressure everywhere.......pressure from family, school, friends, homework and yourself.....
i live in a high pressured world.i have weird friends( not all la of coz), weird family(sometimes), weird me giving pressure to me anytime, everywhere......i am glad to have a big body to withstand the pressure......at least won't be crumpled to pieces like a piece of cake......
friends, some of them always think toooooooooo much and do all unreasonable things.... u think of them, sometimes u feel sorry for somewhat like abandoning them, but u have your reasons ... they have a large fight with you, they say things to you.... makes u feel unworthy.... then comes the sorry part......... it hurts most......
family, they have expectations......if it is not your interest and u are doing that activity, 80% sure bcoz of my parents arr, want me to join this join that..... they want you to do what they want.... and i don't like to talk about it anymore.....
homework....... it is the fight between friends, family, and you......you want to work hard, your family wants good results, your friends wants to be better than your marks......you stop working hard and your friends will chase your marks, your family can't see the effort there and will go after you, nagging you to study....this all leads to pressure......
i am pressurised...........
not because of homework....
not because of friends.....
not because of family...
ITS BECAUSE OF ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~me.............
myself..............
i live in a high pressured world.i have weird friends( not all la of coz), weird family(sometimes), weird me giving pressure to me anytime, everywhere......i am glad to have a big body to withstand the pressure......at least won't be crumpled to pieces like a piece of cake......
friends, some of them always think toooooooooo much and do all unreasonable things.... u think of them, sometimes u feel sorry for somewhat like abandoning them, but u have your reasons ... they have a large fight with you, they say things to you.... makes u feel unworthy.... then comes the sorry part......... it hurts most......
family, they have expectations......if it is not your interest and u are doing that activity, 80% sure bcoz of my parents arr, want me to join this join that..... they want you to do what they want.... and i don't like to talk about it anymore.....
homework....... it is the fight between friends, family, and you......you want to work hard, your family wants good results, your friends wants to be better than your marks......you stop working hard and your friends will chase your marks, your family can't see the effort there and will go after you, nagging you to study....this all leads to pressure......
i am pressurised...........
not because of homework....
not because of friends.....
not because of family...
ITS BECAUSE OF ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~me.............
myself..............
2009年8月28日星期五
泪，和一堆心碎
雨帘中，你瘦长的背影若隐若现。曾几何时，你我在同样的地点，共同走过这铺满泥的道路，尝尽雨水中的甜、酸、苦、辣。悲伤，在快乐的背后出其不意的袭击了我们。但快乐的芽儿，在悲伤的倾盆大雨后，从土地里探出头来。苦，也是在这个过程中，开花、枯萎、开花、枯萎...... 消瘦的脸蛋，在雨中，苍白不已。“你病了吗？别淋雨了，都是我不好。”那若隐若现的背影，消失不见了。
可恶的手机，竟敢坏了。我在等着重要的信息呢。一点四十八分，震动分子，震动了耳膜，把讯息传到大脑，手反射性的拿起了那部通讯工具。 “你认为迟回我的信息很好玩吗？让一个人等待是一个好玩的游戏是吗？我没有那么多时间来让你这样被你耍！！！！” “对不起，我的手机坏了，信息迟发进来了。原谅我好吗？” 接着就神经质的每十秒望一下那个非生物，生怕错过了什么。
“既然你的手机不欢迎我发的简讯，那这就是发给它的最后一封简讯了。再见。”再打过去，已经是关机了。眼睛流出的是泪，血管里流着的，是心碎。
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
不知道为了什么。。。。直到看到了你苍白的脸，发黄的双眼，失去了光泽的发丝，我才知道。。。你真的没有时间可以等了。。。。。
朋友，我能为你做什么？现在的我，什么都没有了。
只有泪，和一堆心碎。。。。。。。。
可恶的手机，竟敢坏了。我在等着重要的信息呢。一点四十八分，震动分子，震动了耳膜，把讯息传到大脑，手反射性的拿起了那部通讯工具。 “你认为迟回我的信息很好玩吗？让一个人等待是一个好玩的游戏是吗？我没有那么多时间来让你这样被你耍！！！！” “对不起，我的手机坏了，信息迟发进来了。原谅我好吗？” 接着就神经质的每十秒望一下那个非生物，生怕错过了什么。
“既然你的手机不欢迎我发的简讯，那这就是发给它的最后一封简讯了。再见。”再打过去，已经是关机了。眼睛流出的是泪，血管里流着的，是心碎。
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
不知道为了什么。。。。直到看到了你苍白的脸，发黄的双眼，失去了光泽的发丝，我才知道。。。你真的没有时间可以等了。。。。。
朋友，我能为你做什么？现在的我，什么都没有了。
只有泪，和一堆心碎。。。。。。。。
2009年8月26日星期三
感触
看了好友的部落格，有许许多多的感触。跟她相比我真得过的不怎么样，甚至觉得自己有点失败。跟她应该不能说是同类型的人，不过有相似的经历吧。自己在上了中学后努力指数节节下跌。也没有那股冲劲去把它找回来。除了苟且偷生。。。。没别的了吧。。。一句名言是这样的，人不该只看过去，要向前看。。。但。。。。
真的不该拿自己来和她比较， 但是又觉得自己和她非常相似。为什么会成为他的好朋友，也是因为觉得她和自己的遭遇相同，互相怜悯之后互相扶持，也就成了好友。两人都优秀， 只是一个已经败在压力之中了。我得曾经，都只是昙花一现。她的一切，开花前还在悠悠飘香。现在的我还在原地踏步，想在这一切中理一点头绪出来。自己想要什么还没弄清楚，有没有人能告诉我？
感情生活，我应该可以说是无吧。。。哈哈。。。跟她比起来就是很大分别了，哈哈。。。我的记录上可以说是干净得一个指纹也没有哦，她的已经渡过无数风风雨雨了。哈哈。。。。祝福她咯。。。
我自己也是很有野心，想闯出自己的天地。有“反清复明”的想法。我要什么，我只能继续探索。现在的空虚，是缺乏感情？成就？满足？这一切都得靠自己争取，把握一切得到的机会。我努力的开始，得有人支持我吧？
洁瑜， 你的精神回来了吗？能再次让自己得到满足，得回曾经的辉煌吗？这一次，我不想再经历那尴尬的场面。我不想大家在误以为我是哪里闯出来的无礼家伙。我不想大家都不承认我辛苦努力的成果。没有人会记得我。。。。
洁瑜：“辛苦你了，洁瑜。”
真的不该拿自己来和她比较， 但是又觉得自己和她非常相似。为什么会成为他的好朋友，也是因为觉得她和自己的遭遇相同，互相怜悯之后互相扶持，也就成了好友。两人都优秀， 只是一个已经败在压力之中了。我得曾经，都只是昙花一现。她的一切，开花前还在悠悠飘香。现在的我还在原地踏步，想在这一切中理一点头绪出来。自己想要什么还没弄清楚，有没有人能告诉我？
感情生活，我应该可以说是无吧。。。哈哈。。。跟她比起来就是很大分别了，哈哈。。。我的记录上可以说是干净得一个指纹也没有哦，她的已经渡过无数风风雨雨了。哈哈。。。。祝福她咯。。。
我自己也是很有野心，想闯出自己的天地。有“反清复明”的想法。我要什么，我只能继续探索。现在的空虚，是缺乏感情？成就？满足？这一切都得靠自己争取，把握一切得到的机会。我努力的开始，得有人支持我吧？
洁瑜， 你的精神回来了吗？能再次让自己得到满足，得回曾经的辉煌吗？这一次，我不想再经历那尴尬的场面。我不想大家在误以为我是哪里闯出来的无礼家伙。我不想大家都不承认我辛苦努力的成果。没有人会记得我。。。。
洁瑜：“辛苦你了，洁瑜。”
2009年8月19日星期三
对付自己生气时的魔鬼
我很常生气。为什么要生气？因为我弄别人生气。别人为什么要生气？因为他们关心我。不然就是他们小器。再不然就是他们野蛮，不听我说。除此之外我也不知道他们为什么要生气了， 除非他们注定是要生气生个不停的。那种叫无理取闹。
有时都不知道自己该不该生气。是不值得生气的也要去生气。人生苦短啊。。。。。
如何对付那讨厌的魔鬼？
1。深呼吸，张开嘴巴，大口咬自己。。。。
2。重复以上步骤，只是把自己换成口香糖。（小心等下又咬到自己）
3。重复以上步骤，不要把嘴巴关起来，把声音放出来。
4。重复步骤三，加些眼泪不停地流会更痛快。。。。
5。这些步骤都能一次过做完，所以会很累，很痛，很伤。。。。去睡觉吧。。。。
有时都不知道自己该不该生气。是不值得生气的也要去生气。人生苦短啊。。。。。
如何对付那讨厌的魔鬼？
1。深呼吸，张开嘴巴，大口咬自己。。。。
2。重复以上步骤，只是把自己换成口香糖。（小心等下又咬到自己）
3。重复以上步骤，不要把嘴巴关起来，把声音放出来。
4。重复步骤三，加些眼泪不停地流会更痛快。。。。
5。这些步骤都能一次过做完，所以会很累，很痛，很伤。。。。去睡觉吧。。。。
people... unsatisfied... problems....
yes, people are unsatisfied. why? because they have ever growing desires. i have to wonder, why do they have all these desires? do they even DESERVE it? sometimes yes, sometimes no. it always occurs in my life. people desire the things they shoudn't be thinking of it. it troubles the people around you just because they need time to think:"hmm.... should i grant her wish? is it good to her or bad to her?" you cause trouble, and you know exactly you WILL cause trouble. you knew that, but you put ur desire infront of your needs. you became a person that lives on the second floor without the first floor and the ground floor. because you are selfish. people, sometimes it is not wrong to desire. but think with your brains, u have brains. there is a thing called IQ in your brain. use it to solve problems, not to create problems. and when you havent manage your needs, don't think about something you don't need in the future or present. it is ur unsatisfactory that leads you to the problems you create. people don't like you but they don't tell. it leads to TONS of problems..........
whenever you want to say something you want, T-H-I-N-K about it before saying stupid things from your mouth. don't ever let people get the chance top be scared of you. people sometimes don't trust you anymore even sometimes it is just a small matter.
as for me, i tell you because i am the stupid person who done all of these once upon a time. i tell you as a friend. let yourself live with dignity and not with any sorriness ......
bad memories.....
whenever you want to say something you want, T-H-I-N-K about it before saying stupid things from your mouth. don't ever let people get the chance top be scared of you. people sometimes don't trust you anymore even sometimes it is just a small matter.
as for me, i tell you because i am the stupid person who done all of these once upon a time. i tell you as a friend. let yourself live with dignity and not with any sorriness ......
bad memories.....
2009年8月17日星期一
2009年8月11日星期二
你得到了你所要的，不是吗？
现在已经证明我没有抢走你的粉丝，没有抢走大家对你的注意，你开心了吗？
我没有朋友，围着你的人是那么得多，你还是很受大家欢迎啊。
做了一天的闷葫芦，让大家对我没兴趣，换来使自己的难过。
我没有必要为你忍气吞声，你也没有必要去管我！
你继续爱你的虚荣吧，你这现实可恶的人。
我不再快乐，我封闭我自己。
只因为自私的——
你。。。。。。
我没有朋友，围着你的人是那么得多，你还是很受大家欢迎啊。
做了一天的闷葫芦，让大家对我没兴趣，换来使自己的难过。
我没有必要为你忍气吞声，你也没有必要去管我！
你继续爱你的虚荣吧，你这现实可恶的人。
我不再快乐，我封闭我自己。
只因为自私的——
你。。。。。。
quarreling... is it a best way to solve problems?
i quarrelled with someone.... still angry.....coz she wanted to change school on some ridiculous reason.... and it is trial now, and i feel bad..... scolded her 4 being so irritating......just finish the exam first onli talk about things like that, ok? and i am not ok now bcoz she ruined my peace and calm mind.....
she told me she wasnt getting the attention she used to get last times.... I was the one who took all her spotlights away?!?! no i didn't.... i am just doing my part as a student, don't want to get into any trouble and treating everyone fair...... and i dun get the chance to be exposed into public much as i am not the "school flower" nor "school grass".... i dun have very strong exercise muscles that make me a famous sports athlete..... i am also not like my teammate-- miss wy choy who is good at speaking...... i dont have the extraordinary brains, look and popularity, what makes me steal her spotlights away? -_- lll
on the way we quarrelled..... at last, i said: "enough 4 your ridiculous reasons.... u are not a good friend at all.....no, i am not a good friend because i became the reason u wanted to change school.... the responsibility is on me right? fine, u go......"
there it ends our conversation.....
am i mean?
am i wrong?
have i done something to hurt her?
or didn't i listen to her?
it takes time to find out.......oh dear.......
she told me she wasnt getting the attention she used to get last times.... I was the one who took all her spotlights away?!?! no i didn't.... i am just doing my part as a student, don't want to get into any trouble and treating everyone fair...... and i dun get the chance to be exposed into public much as i am not the "school flower" nor "school grass".... i dun have very strong exercise muscles that make me a famous sports athlete..... i am also not like my teammate-- miss wy choy who is good at speaking...... i dont have the extraordinary brains, look and popularity, what makes me steal her spotlights away? -_- lll
on the way we quarrelled..... at last, i said: "enough 4 your ridiculous reasons.... u are not a good friend at all.....no, i am not a good friend because i became the reason u wanted to change school.... the responsibility is on me right? fine, u go......"
there it ends our conversation.....
am i mean?
am i wrong?
have i done something to hurt her?
or didn't i listen to her?
it takes time to find out.......oh dear.......
2009年8月9日星期日
flag....wuwuwu....
sorry to my teamates.... i am so sorry........ i promise i will try my best next year........i will do my best........ for my team, st john, and amc.............. love ya, st john....
2009年8月6日星期四
stuck in the lift...
i never thought i was going to be stuck in a lift ever....
this shocked me and although it was not a fearful 1 but it leaves memories.....
bad bad bad memories.....
just when i am going to the groud floor to meet my dad,my sis and i got stuck on the very ground floor.... the door just won't open no matter how many times i press the open button... ya, when u are in a lift u won't press any buttons to get out, but when the door just won't open u'd try anything to get out of that stuffy cold box, right? i remembered the book which said the girl who can't get out of the lift pressed the bell button untill her finger nails break still dun have anyone come and save her.....i dunno whether i shud press the bell button until my fingernails break or just wait 4 the lift to be repaired .... then i see my sister's finger move towards the buttons.....
and she pressed the 1st floor button.... then the lift moved up....amithaba, the door opened....
we stepped out of the lift and took the stairs down....
hmm... i wonder what happens if i press the bell button.....
this shocked me and although it was not a fearful 1 but it leaves memories.....
bad bad bad memories.....
just when i am going to the groud floor to meet my dad,my sis and i got stuck on the very ground floor.... the door just won't open no matter how many times i press the open button... ya, when u are in a lift u won't press any buttons to get out, but when the door just won't open u'd try anything to get out of that stuffy cold box, right? i remembered the book which said the girl who can't get out of the lift pressed the bell button untill her finger nails break still dun have anyone come and save her.....i dunno whether i shud press the bell button until my fingernails break or just wait 4 the lift to be repaired .... then i see my sister's finger move towards the buttons.....
and she pressed the 1st floor button.... then the lift moved up....amithaba, the door opened....
we stepped out of the lift and took the stairs down....
hmm... i wonder what happens if i press the bell button.....
2009年8月5日星期三
people, its worth it.....
during the canteen day, we all worked like mad, really worked like mad......but everything went wrong at times....things are messy, customers are waiting, the ice was melting and the whole floor was wet.... i didn't get to buy my yougurt drinks, never got to play games.....BUT i did my job....actually i am real sorry to leave my friends to do up the cleaning job but my mum came... so sorry guys...what have we sold on canteen day?
MAIN ATTRACTIONS:
1.smoothies...( i highly recommend this, it was the most delicious drink i ever tasted...ice cream with coookies and milk and whipped cream and ice and sugar rice and chocolate syrup.....yum.....i can say it sold a whole lot too.....)
2.ice-cream floats( it was carbonated drinks with a scoop of vanilla ice-cream on it....i liked the rootbeer most...... it used up all of our vanilla ice cream so we too use the flavour with berries in it.... it tasted just nice....)
3. ice-cream( ya, who doesn't like ice-cream?)
4. nestle yougurt drinks( we sold the whole truck of it and profited about 800 ringgit from it...we could have earned more if we didn't cut the price at the end..hmm.... anyway it was satisfiying)
5.coffee( i believed the coffee attracted many people to try it... it smells good even i am not a coffee person...)
6. chocolate dip(guys, the chocolate was nice... no other comments....xp)
how can i ever forget the things we argued during preparation for the canteen day....we thought of all types of crazy things to sell, we fight over the things we think is sellable, we find sponsors, we calculate budgets.... even though decorations were done by part of the people, but the whole class was involved in cutting, pasting, colouring.... you can see the picture of unity shine infront of you....it was touching, people's power, unity, stand together and never fall........
my class 3p8 got second in the most profit sales..... the first was 3p7..... i knew 3p7 was always famous of their unity, they work and share together, they were efficient, etc, etc.....but as you can see your class grow, your class achieve goals together, it fills your eyes ith tears.... we maybe isnt as close as 3p7 does, but we are working towards it....3p8 works towards it's way....
canteen day, it fills my heart with turmoil of feelings.... i love 3p8 forever.....
MAIN ATTRACTIONS:
1.smoothies...( i highly recommend this, it was the most delicious drink i ever tasted...ice cream with coookies and milk and whipped cream and ice and sugar rice and chocolate syrup.....yum.....i can say it sold a whole lot too.....)
2.ice-cream floats( it was carbonated drinks with a scoop of vanilla ice-cream on it....i liked the rootbeer most...... it used up all of our vanilla ice cream so we too use the flavour with berries in it.... it tasted just nice....)
3. ice-cream( ya, who doesn't like ice-cream?)
4. nestle yougurt drinks( we sold the whole truck of it and profited about 800 ringgit from it...we could have earned more if we didn't cut the price at the end..hmm.... anyway it was satisfiying)
5.coffee( i believed the coffee attracted many people to try it... it smells good even i am not a coffee person...)
6. chocolate dip(guys, the chocolate was nice... no other comments....xp)
how can i ever forget the things we argued during preparation for the canteen day....we thought of all types of crazy things to sell, we fight over the things we think is sellable, we find sponsors, we calculate budgets.... even though decorations were done by part of the people, but the whole class was involved in cutting, pasting, colouring.... you can see the picture of unity shine infront of you....it was touching, people's power, unity, stand together and never fall........
my class 3p8 got second in the most profit sales..... the first was 3p7..... i knew 3p7 was always famous of their unity, they work and share together, they were efficient, etc, etc.....but as you can see your class grow, your class achieve goals together, it fills your eyes ith tears.... we maybe isnt as close as 3p7 does, but we are working towards it....3p8 works towards it's way....
canteen day, it fills my heart with turmoil of feelings.... i love 3p8 forever.....
2009年8月4日星期二
傍晚的太阳， 沉下去了。。。。
妈妈在我半睡半醒之际，把我叫醒。。。。说是要让我看最美的太阳。被她拖着出去， 就看到了一颗粉红又带鲜橙色的大圆球。啊，是太阳！她是完美的，没有一片云正遮盖着她。他的艳丽，他的壮观，尽收入眼帘。当整个人正愣着，他缓缓地沉入山峦后，一点一点地被山城怡保淹没。。。她是多么的美，多么的亮眼， 但他下山时，却是毫不留情的， 没有一点眷恋的沉下去。。。我看着她， 那过程似乎缓慢，却也发生的极快， 让人傻眼，又让人着迷。。。
那是个好深的感触。。。短短的两分钟内，太阳消失在我眼前。人，也会像太阳，在短短的时间内，在我心中离去吗？感情的脆弱，是否加快了花儿枯死的时间？红颜薄命， 就是命运为他们定下的祸根？
再不好好珍惜，可能连太阳也没得看了。。。。
那是个好深的感触。。。短短的两分钟内，太阳消失在我眼前。人，也会像太阳，在短短的时间内，在我心中离去吗？感情的脆弱，是否加快了花儿枯死的时间？红颜薄命， 就是命运为他们定下的祸根？
再不好好珍惜，可能连太阳也没得看了。。。。
2009年8月2日星期日
what a hard day......
people.... have you ever think of hurting your friends is a small matter?suicidal problems, starving yourselves, cutting yourselves with knifes and blades?is it fair to the friends who care? is it fair to them who worried so much about you people?my friends..... i am a human, eventhough i sometimes can do the extraordinary things you guys cant, maybe i can speak your mind, i can influence you...... but i am not God.... i cant take it if you go screaming you want to die, i cant help you if u r stubborn and dun want to take your meals, i am not mum to all...........i care, but i am not multitasked.....i have not been taking the world's most influential human prize as i cant solve all your problems....all i can do is stop u guys from doing something stupid and heartbreaking....and if you don't listen, i still have to think of something to stop you too.... i am not as badhearted as someone, i cant take the risk... every live is precious, every live is not supposed to be crumpled by you like this.....
i am silly......i am insane......
i am silly......i am insane......
2009年7月30日星期四
yes, no, yes, no, yes, no..........argh.......
i am fed up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fed up fed up fed up with you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok i am back to a clam state now......
heres my statement...... people who speaks about others rumours never think much using their brains.....people that speaks rough about people doesn't need to be treated kind too.... people that think they have the freedom of speech, go on...... maybe let me have the freedom of speech sometimes on you too?
today went 4 the debate competition among classes.... i thought it was fine although it seems that we are extremely nervous....i think i did a not-bad-at-all job.....but we didn't make it into the semifinals.....so.....i feel bad about it....i loved my teamates... they were brilliant.....
next i am frustrated with the little little talks among the friends.....the "friends" which i don"t know...their irritational attitudes arouses my anger..... it doesn't affect you people....it affects the innocent ones.... true friends that care.... they worry, they're sad with you ......
people should live in harmony......
ok i am back to a clam state now......
heres my statement...... people who speaks about others rumours never think much using their brains.....people that speaks rough about people doesn't need to be treated kind too.... people that think they have the freedom of speech, go on...... maybe let me have the freedom of speech sometimes on you too?
today went 4 the debate competition among classes.... i thought it was fine although it seems that we are extremely nervous....i think i did a not-bad-at-all job.....but we didn't make it into the semifinals.....so.....i feel bad about it....i loved my teamates... they were brilliant.....
next i am frustrated with the little little talks among the friends.....the "friends" which i don"t know...their irritational attitudes arouses my anger..... it doesn't affect you people....it affects the innocent ones.... true friends that care.... they worry, they're sad with you ......
people should live in harmony......
2009年7月22日星期三
decorating, planning, cutting, pasting, drawing, nursing.....at the end of the day....
yes, thats all what i had done today....
it is tiring and frustrating, wasting and boring.......
it is not the work i meant, it is the emotions...
it made me feel bad, feel unworthy, feel negatively..........
i am tired, i am sick, because of the ungratefulness of YOU!!!!!!!!
i am grinding my teeth, i am stamping my feet, fighting over the bad power,
cursed on me by YOU....
hate you hate you......
but what can i do?
i can never, ever, getaway from you......
it is tiring and frustrating, wasting and boring.......
it is not the work i meant, it is the emotions...
it made me feel bad, feel unworthy, feel negatively..........
i am tired, i am sick, because of the ungratefulness of YOU!!!!!!!!
i am grinding my teeth, i am stamping my feet, fighting over the bad power,
cursed on me by YOU....
hate you hate you......
but what can i do?
i can never, ever, getaway from you......
2009年7月20日星期一
rumours.......
rumours, rumours, and rumours.....
it is everywhere , everyday...........
it creeps into your life, ruins your mind...
people talk about it, you listen to it,
you talk about it, people listen to it...
its power, dark power....
it pollutes people's mind,
stains people's character,
excercises people's jaw......
what are the benifits you get from it?
zero.....
people say: " syok lo......"
people say: " interesting mar...."
people say: " update yourself mar...."
excuse me, talking about rumours, is an immoral act....
1st, you don't know where the source come from.....
2nd, you tell people about things that might doesn't exists......
3rd, you are just being selfish to talk when u like.....it is people's business....
people, the world is free.... we all have the freedom to speak....
people also have the rights to stay clear from these rumours....
its deadly.......remember what i say... D-E-A-D-L-Y......
it is everywhere , everyday...........
it creeps into your life, ruins your mind...
people talk about it, you listen to it,
you talk about it, people listen to it...
its power, dark power....
it pollutes people's mind,
stains people's character,
excercises people's jaw......
what are the benifits you get from it?
zero.....
people say: " syok lo......"
people say: " interesting mar...."
people say: " update yourself mar...."
excuse me, talking about rumours, is an immoral act....
1st, you don't know where the source come from.....
2nd, you tell people about things that might doesn't exists......
3rd, you are just being selfish to talk when u like.....it is people's business....
people, the world is free.... we all have the freedom to speak....
people also have the rights to stay clear from these rumours....
its deadly.......remember what i say... D-E-A-D-L-Y......
on a canteen day date....
wahaa..... someone asked me out 4 a date on canteen day.....
my friends please don't be surprised.... its not a real date....la.....
to the person's definition, a date is: two people hand in hand walk around and have a fun day...
so it is not what you all think.....ok?
this is what we planned......
we'll meet about 9 at the school, then we'll try out the ghost house first before going 4 the horror maze....then we'l get something to eat..... (of course la canteen day dun eat do what wor....)
lots of stalls to go to....because of the nagging and blackmailing of my "dear" friends....i will list it out, dear friends...... see i am so nice to help you all promote.....but the problem is not much people can see my blog oo.... how?hmm...........
1st stall we're going to is OF COURSE 3P8 la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey, my class sells alot of goodies ....
we sell chocolate dips, ice-cream, ice-cream floats, yogurt drinks, smoothies, and more........
whats special about our stall is, we have special names for the floats and ice-cream...
exotic, romantic, realistic, here we have it all!!!!!!!!
we have hand made keychains available too.........
erm... couples can buy the keychains in couples coz it is cute, identible and fun...
enough for my class,no rotten eggs please, i'm moving on....
then we will visit the 3p11 stall, for the show of support only.....
maybe won't buy anything....just to look around....
then comes the 2p10 stall....
i wanna find out whether the love water is it just a bottle of water with a few pieces of orange zest in it or not.....it is weird coz it is called love water....
water= sky juice
love water= cupid combined with sky juice?
it doesn't sounds yummy at all............
achoo.... i will definitely go to find herbal tea or any tong yun pou.....
like that v much.......
haha, what about my partner leh?
dunno o.... coz my partner follows me mar......
hey hey.....
i am waiting 4 the day o......
my friends please don't be surprised.... its not a real date....la.....
to the person's definition, a date is: two people hand in hand walk around and have a fun day...
so it is not what you all think.....ok?
this is what we planned......
we'll meet about 9 at the school, then we'll try out the ghost house first before going 4 the horror maze....then we'l get something to eat..... (of course la canteen day dun eat do what wor....)
lots of stalls to go to....because of the nagging and blackmailing of my "dear" friends....i will list it out, dear friends...... see i am so nice to help you all promote.....but the problem is not much people can see my blog oo.... how?hmm...........
1st stall we're going to is OF COURSE 3P8 la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey, my class sells alot of goodies ....
we sell chocolate dips, ice-cream, ice-cream floats, yogurt drinks, smoothies, and more........
whats special about our stall is, we have special names for the floats and ice-cream...
exotic, romantic, realistic, here we have it all!!!!!!!!
we have hand made keychains available too.........
erm... couples can buy the keychains in couples coz it is cute, identible and fun...
enough for my class,no rotten eggs please, i'm moving on....
then we will visit the 3p11 stall, for the show of support only.....
maybe won't buy anything....just to look around....
then comes the 2p10 stall....
i wanna find out whether the love water is it just a bottle of water with a few pieces of orange zest in it or not.....it is weird coz it is called love water....
water= sky juice
love water= cupid combined with sky juice?
it doesn't sounds yummy at all............
achoo.... i will definitely go to find herbal tea or any tong yun pou.....
like that v much.......
haha, what about my partner leh?
dunno o.... coz my partner follows me mar......
hey hey.....
i am waiting 4 the day o......
2009年7月13日星期一
what a day.....anyway, i still love st john...
today is the most exciting, thrilling, terrifying, sad day..... there are conflicts in flag....people argue bcoz of different matters that cannot be solved.... have to tolerate with them since i am from the same group with ali and ting ting, and i am the leader, i cant just stand with them onli bcoz i edi used to using the signs....have to listen and make a wise decision.....being a leader is tough anyway.....i am grateful bcoz the members trust me to become a leader , and i am juz a new member compared to them...but the end result is, we managed to finish in 8 minutes and 30 seconds... and we've got about 5 mistakes.... thats a good start i can say... and i am proud of them bcoz we all can get together and work out something for our first time cooperating together...may we be blessed for our coming practises and competition....
after that i went to duty.... i could say i am happy to see pvt wong there... my best friend when i got into school... maybe now we are separated by the committee and member status, but we are still good friends right? having a good time chatting like old days and laughing off my head like mad.... but, theres a problem....a real real real real real BIG problem i should say.... i told you that members are not allowed to be too friends with committees..... its hard because people need bonding, people need interaction, people need communication......i know i am stubborn, but i lost myself... i feel comfortable talking with the people i like....not wanting people to say i am brushing dust off people's shoes.... anyway,the person who woke me up on this, she's right... and i totally appreciate her guidance....i got cold water on my sleepy head....i woke up..... and, i, feel, embarassed.........
i would like to apologize to her for my mistake........ sorry........
then is the crazy part of my duty.......i was supposed to leave at 5 o'clock, but my dad's tuition finish on 5.30 pm... so i thought i might stay for another 15 to 30 minutes.... i missed out alot of duties because flag practice and others....on 5.05 pm sharp, came a patient , from PA class..... what i saw was indeed a shocking scene... there's a mechanical pencil lead underneath her palm skin, with a small small head sticking out.......it is black and i think it is quite deep... the PA girl dunno y she can stand the pain....so senior and i used forceps and tried to clip it out ...what worried me is it seems to go deeper and deeper.......so what we decided to do is to ask the patient to hold back the breath, we will flatten the skin and let the head of the pencil lead stick out more and we will clip it out.......and what we've tried doesn't seem to work out too well too......i became worried and scared, deep in my heart i can feel the pain of something sticking out from underneath the skin of your palm....in came another casualty, with just a bit of reddness from being scratched when she fell down.... senior took after the first while i took over the second.... what a lot to learn.... i feel my first aid knowledge is just like a baby...... i didn't know what exactly i had to do for a casualty which the knee is being scratched and has red marks on it..... then only i know, for normal cuts and wounds, clean it with dettol and apply yellow lotion will do...then senior must have seen me kelam kabut then switched with me.....however, when i go back to the first casualty, she has already got a longer head out by HERSELF!!!!! then i took up the responsibility to clip out the lead.....i slowly and gently pulled out the lead..... her expression was full of pain and torture..... and i was already beginning to sweat and sweat.... the lead was about 1 cm long....
argh, i said and then i throw the lead into the dustbin.... applied dettol and yellow lotion for her and let her leave.....
i hurried to sejati after cleaning up some part of the room, afraid that dad might leave me to die and go home himself...having a turmoil of feelings, sitting in an air conditioned BENZ ....the cool air cant blow away the akwardness, the worries, the unhappiness.......memories flow into my brain, wiping out all my homework i need to do.......i just wanna sleep.......until the very end of the day, i shall wake up and say: what a long day.......
after that i went to duty.... i could say i am happy to see pvt wong there... my best friend when i got into school... maybe now we are separated by the committee and member status, but we are still good friends right? having a good time chatting like old days and laughing off my head like mad.... but, theres a problem....a real real real real real BIG problem i should say.... i told you that members are not allowed to be too friends with committees..... its hard because people need bonding, people need interaction, people need communication......i know i am stubborn, but i lost myself... i feel comfortable talking with the people i like....not wanting people to say i am brushing dust off people's shoes.... anyway,the person who woke me up on this, she's right... and i totally appreciate her guidance....i got cold water on my sleepy head....i woke up..... and, i, feel, embarassed.........
i would like to apologize to her for my mistake........ sorry........
then is the crazy part of my duty.......i was supposed to leave at 5 o'clock, but my dad's tuition finish on 5.30 pm... so i thought i might stay for another 15 to 30 minutes.... i missed out alot of duties because flag practice and others....on 5.05 pm sharp, came a patient , from PA class..... what i saw was indeed a shocking scene... there's a mechanical pencil lead underneath her palm skin, with a small small head sticking out.......it is black and i think it is quite deep... the PA girl dunno y she can stand the pain....so senior and i used forceps and tried to clip it out ...what worried me is it seems to go deeper and deeper.......so what we decided to do is to ask the patient to hold back the breath, we will flatten the skin and let the head of the pencil lead stick out more and we will clip it out.......and what we've tried doesn't seem to work out too well too......i became worried and scared, deep in my heart i can feel the pain of something sticking out from underneath the skin of your palm....in came another casualty, with just a bit of reddness from being scratched when she fell down.... senior took after the first while i took over the second.... what a lot to learn.... i feel my first aid knowledge is just like a baby...... i didn't know what exactly i had to do for a casualty which the knee is being scratched and has red marks on it..... then only i know, for normal cuts and wounds, clean it with dettol and apply yellow lotion will do...then senior must have seen me kelam kabut then switched with me.....however, when i go back to the first casualty, she has already got a longer head out by HERSELF!!!!! then i took up the responsibility to clip out the lead.....i slowly and gently pulled out the lead..... her expression was full of pain and torture..... and i was already beginning to sweat and sweat.... the lead was about 1 cm long....
argh, i said and then i throw the lead into the dustbin.... applied dettol and yellow lotion for her and let her leave.....
i hurried to sejati after cleaning up some part of the room, afraid that dad might leave me to die and go home himself...having a turmoil of feelings, sitting in an air conditioned BENZ ....the cool air cant blow away the akwardness, the worries, the unhappiness.......memories flow into my brain, wiping out all my homework i need to do.......i just wanna sleep.......until the very end of the day, i shall wake up and say: what a long day.......
2009年7月6日星期一
非常快活的诗歌朗诵part3
呃。。。 第一次得奖是庆幸的，第二次是惊喜的，第三次是不可思议的，第四次是味如嚼蜡的，第五次呢。。。啊，感谢佛陀。。。
上次不是有人说“州赛就会很有气氛的啦。。”这次真的被他说中了哦。。。
当天，我们可说是最早到三德的一个队伍。七点半耶。。。。就因为我们的柯老师前吩咐万叮咛我们一定要早点去试音什么的。好好习惯一下场地。。。。结果，除了圣母的几张熟面孔，也看不到很多人脸罢了。走进空荡荡的礼堂，就看见上次带我们参赛的庄督学。负责音响的不知道要怎样叫他们的“学生”（可以这样叫吗？还是要叫工作人员还是你们三德有什么特别的名称在这要请教你们一下）， 还在忙着搬东西和装麦克风。
我们就在校园走来走去，也没什么事干。。。就一直走来走去说废话。。。开音嘛。。。之后，我们的蔡小姐和许小姐似乎看到一些旧相好，他们兴奋得不得了。我和甑小姐四目交集，只得赔笑。 笑得自己都不知道是牙齿太大颗塞不回嘴巴还是风太大我们关不上嘴巴还是在假假笑了。。。。。。。。
就这样逛了好久好久好久。。。。。。每次比赛都得等待，是我的命么？（谁不知道， 大家都一样和你一起等，吵什么？）终于， 卢老师叫我们去练习了。 站在草场的一端，听着天主教堂传来的宏伟的声音，老师还让我们先祈祷一番。 接着我们就练了连我们的诗歌。草场的另一端，eric在练习他的诗歌。洪亮的声音，传进我们的耳膜里还振得嗡嗡响。 有人说他吵，打扰我们练习。我则羡慕他的好一个丹田气。（如果我在st.john 喊command有那么响亮清楚就好了）哈哈，我心想：他声音这么响，等下用的小讲堂会不会余音绕梁久久不能不能散去？这又让我联想起他们初中组的诗歌， 叫《凝聚》哈哈，真有联系。天气凉凉的，我投入进诗歌也非常得轻松和愉快。
嘿嘿，路上遇见我亲爱的郑老师。哦，原来为她弟弟主持比赛呀？哇，为他撑场。。。。 老师你弟弟真是幸福。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。“喂，快去报到啦！”“噢，知道啦”
报到过后，又是等待等待和等待。漫长的等待。。。。。。。。。。嘿嘿，瞥见大哥了。好像脸肿了一点， 何照片的有点不一样。应该是他拍的照片有神奇的瘦脸效果。。不然就是我眼睛有问题。我知道大哥你会耸耸肩，把这当废话看待的啦。哈哈。接着就是开幕典礼。。。。还有贵宾的用茶点时间。。。
又是走来走去的时间。看到你们都闷对吧？我当时也觉得闷。嘉绮则整个早上不停地发简讯过来，问这问哪。。。 你不知道012给016很贵的吗？我知道你有钱，不用这样虐待我的手机吧？不过你来陪我我很感激。。。 你是唯一在我紧张的时候把我弄得更紧张的人。哈哈。没有啦，你在我肩膀的一击，好像给了马匹一鞭，让它更努力地向前进。 好啦，贵宾们在用茶点的时间她就来到了。不过他心不在焉的，一直望向大门口。等人喔。。。。。我问他是不是等男生，她说，不是啦，等一个女生。突然，—_ —111 我问：你是不是。。。。跟女生来这里约会？ 啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！，我一声惨叫，她非鼓励式的一击重重打在我的头上。 哦，我闭嘴就是了嘛。。。我今天比赛你还这样对我，还亏你再friendster上面说我是你好朋友。。。我们一堆圣母的又在三德的校园里走来走去，不时还在一些安静的地方练习。
比赛正式开始了，小学的诗歌朗诵都可爱得很，不过控制音量的方面做得不好，还显得很刺耳。快到第十组的时候，我们再出去练一会儿。正当我踏出礼堂的门口， 我就看见一个熟悉的面孔正用时速一百公里的速度向我冲来。只见嘉绮愉快地笑着，我也觉得好开心。原来亲爱的大吃鬼有来看我比赛阿。 我两个好朋友都来支持我了，我的好运降临咯。。。
轮到初中组的比赛了。我们坐立不安的。不知道为什么，就是不紧张但也不想坐也不想站。我们是第十组。就快到我们的时候，我把我的相机交给了嘉绮，但她把相机交给了大吃鬼。真正在等待的时候就是心跳开始不听话的时候。 我们故作从容地上了台。 我告诉自己，拿出你区赛的气势来。接着音乐响了。。。。。。我什么也不想了。。。。。
接下来的事情，我们投入诗歌， 我们把它朗诵完毕，下来后我饿得要死。两位好朋友很善心的陪我到对面找吃的。我第一次和他们两去逛这种地方。平时都逛逛学校著名的图书馆啊，好有气派的厕所阿， 和我们宏伟的校园建筑。哈哈。我搂着他们肩膀，好不快活。走到了coldstorage就近去买东西吃咯。那里好安静，好像没人似的。我还半开玩笑是不是都机械化了。。。结果，下了电梯，看到一个白发斑斑，步履蹒跚的工作人员从里面走出来。。。。炸到。。。又愚了。。。。。。
之后的事呢，就是逛了一圈，站在面包米饭主食部犹豫了很久到底该买什么来吃。自己的身材又被我那个大姐笑了一番。“要我加油又不给我吃东西什么意思吗你。。。那我就减肥好了”“不行哦，我看惯了你胖胖的样子了。”“那你就少说两句让我安心吃东西行不？”“那你不要加重也不要减重，这样就刚刚好咯。”“是啦是啦，你这个矛盾的人。。。。”
时间跳跳跳到了颁奖时间。。。。。（其实发生很多很多事很多很多对白我都没有力气详细记录。真得很抱歉。不过我觉得自己够长气了的。。。）开始办初中组的奖了。大家都说，至少进到前五名吧，不然我们这个“全国冠军”就糗大了。大吃鬼和那个嘉绮就拼命拿相机拍什么拍。。。（结果拍到丑到要死。。。）人家紧张的样子都已经不是很好看了，你们还要让这丑陋的时刻永远记录在电子世界里头？! 颁到最后几个安慰奖的时候，l两次司仪先生都念：“怡保。。。育才国中。。。。”“怡保。。。培南国中。。。。”吓得我们两次的肋骨差点被心脏撞破了。。。对于完全没有等待过拿奖的人，而且还是期望那么高的比赛， 那种感觉应该是像对北极熊说沙漠有多热的感觉吧。。。
轮到了颁五强的时候了。。。嘉绮和大吃鬼还在拼命拍照。。。。我逼不得已只好很粗暴地把我的相机转个角度， 大声喝她们不准再拍了。到了第四名，司仪大哥报道：怡保。。。三德中学！！！！
那时的我已经和我的朋友们抱成一团，腿都软了。等了等，咦？第三名不是我们哦。。。。接着我们就被请上台了。当时我有一个强烈的预感我们会以微差落败给第一名。又是只念第一名先。。。好了。： 由马来西亚教育部主催，霹雳州教育局主办， 霹雳州国中教师联谊会，霹雳华小教联会协办第六届（二零零九年度）霹雳州中小学华语诗歌朗诵比赛， 初中组的冠军是。。。。。太平华联国中！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
喂喂喂，怎么没有失落的感觉？不是期待很久了吗？应该伤心得哭才是呀。。。我不知道，只觉得自己当时笑得很灿烂，很自然，去和颁奖人握手，看着观众为太平华联国中鼓掌。。。。。。。。。。。
真的好轻松。。。。有人会问，为什么？因为。。。。。。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。
八月十日是预考日期！！！！！如果去比赛就惨了！！！！！笨蛋！！！！！好了，我发完神经了。。。。就是这种感觉。。。微妙的感觉不加以述说。虽然听了很多人说真的是微差败北，自己也有一丁点的不甘，但我们都经历过的，不用再强求了, 对吧？
上次不是有人说“州赛就会很有气氛的啦。。”这次真的被他说中了哦。。。
当天，我们可说是最早到三德的一个队伍。七点半耶。。。。就因为我们的柯老师前吩咐万叮咛我们一定要早点去试音什么的。好好习惯一下场地。。。。结果，除了圣母的几张熟面孔，也看不到很多人脸罢了。走进空荡荡的礼堂，就看见上次带我们参赛的庄督学。负责音响的不知道要怎样叫他们的“学生”（可以这样叫吗？还是要叫工作人员还是你们三德有什么特别的名称在这要请教你们一下）， 还在忙着搬东西和装麦克风。
我们就在校园走来走去，也没什么事干。。。就一直走来走去说废话。。。开音嘛。。。之后，我们的蔡小姐和许小姐似乎看到一些旧相好，他们兴奋得不得了。我和甑小姐四目交集，只得赔笑。 笑得自己都不知道是牙齿太大颗塞不回嘴巴还是风太大我们关不上嘴巴还是在假假笑了。。。。。。。。
就这样逛了好久好久好久。。。。。。每次比赛都得等待，是我的命么？（谁不知道， 大家都一样和你一起等，吵什么？）终于， 卢老师叫我们去练习了。 站在草场的一端，听着天主教堂传来的宏伟的声音，老师还让我们先祈祷一番。 接着我们就练了连我们的诗歌。草场的另一端，eric在练习他的诗歌。洪亮的声音，传进我们的耳膜里还振得嗡嗡响。 有人说他吵，打扰我们练习。我则羡慕他的好一个丹田气。（如果我在st.john 喊command有那么响亮清楚就好了）哈哈，我心想：他声音这么响，等下用的小讲堂会不会余音绕梁久久不能不能散去？这又让我联想起他们初中组的诗歌， 叫《凝聚》哈哈，真有联系。天气凉凉的，我投入进诗歌也非常得轻松和愉快。
嘿嘿，路上遇见我亲爱的郑老师。哦，原来为她弟弟主持比赛呀？哇，为他撑场。。。。 老师你弟弟真是幸福。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。“喂，快去报到啦！”“噢，知道啦”
报到过后，又是等待等待和等待。漫长的等待。。。。。。。。。。嘿嘿，瞥见大哥了。好像脸肿了一点， 何照片的有点不一样。应该是他拍的照片有神奇的瘦脸效果。。不然就是我眼睛有问题。我知道大哥你会耸耸肩，把这当废话看待的啦。哈哈。接着就是开幕典礼。。。。还有贵宾的用茶点时间。。。
又是走来走去的时间。看到你们都闷对吧？我当时也觉得闷。嘉绮则整个早上不停地发简讯过来，问这问哪。。。 你不知道012给016很贵的吗？我知道你有钱，不用这样虐待我的手机吧？不过你来陪我我很感激。。。 你是唯一在我紧张的时候把我弄得更紧张的人。哈哈。没有啦，你在我肩膀的一击，好像给了马匹一鞭，让它更努力地向前进。 好啦，贵宾们在用茶点的时间她就来到了。不过他心不在焉的，一直望向大门口。等人喔。。。。。我问他是不是等男生，她说，不是啦，等一个女生。突然，—_ —111 我问：你是不是。。。。跟女生来这里约会？ 啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！，我一声惨叫，她非鼓励式的一击重重打在我的头上。 哦，我闭嘴就是了嘛。。。我今天比赛你还这样对我，还亏你再friendster上面说我是你好朋友。。。我们一堆圣母的又在三德的校园里走来走去，不时还在一些安静的地方练习。
比赛正式开始了，小学的诗歌朗诵都可爱得很，不过控制音量的方面做得不好，还显得很刺耳。快到第十组的时候，我们再出去练一会儿。正当我踏出礼堂的门口， 我就看见一个熟悉的面孔正用时速一百公里的速度向我冲来。只见嘉绮愉快地笑着，我也觉得好开心。原来亲爱的大吃鬼有来看我比赛阿。 我两个好朋友都来支持我了，我的好运降临咯。。。
轮到初中组的比赛了。我们坐立不安的。不知道为什么，就是不紧张但也不想坐也不想站。我们是第十组。就快到我们的时候，我把我的相机交给了嘉绮，但她把相机交给了大吃鬼。真正在等待的时候就是心跳开始不听话的时候。 我们故作从容地上了台。 我告诉自己，拿出你区赛的气势来。接着音乐响了。。。。。。我什么也不想了。。。。。
接下来的事情，我们投入诗歌， 我们把它朗诵完毕，下来后我饿得要死。两位好朋友很善心的陪我到对面找吃的。我第一次和他们两去逛这种地方。平时都逛逛学校著名的图书馆啊，好有气派的厕所阿， 和我们宏伟的校园建筑。哈哈。我搂着他们肩膀，好不快活。走到了coldstorage就近去买东西吃咯。那里好安静，好像没人似的。我还半开玩笑是不是都机械化了。。。结果，下了电梯，看到一个白发斑斑，步履蹒跚的工作人员从里面走出来。。。。炸到。。。又愚了。。。。。。
之后的事呢，就是逛了一圈，站在面包米饭主食部犹豫了很久到底该买什么来吃。自己的身材又被我那个大姐笑了一番。“要我加油又不给我吃东西什么意思吗你。。。那我就减肥好了”“不行哦，我看惯了你胖胖的样子了。”“那你就少说两句让我安心吃东西行不？”“那你不要加重也不要减重，这样就刚刚好咯。”“是啦是啦，你这个矛盾的人。。。。”
时间跳跳跳到了颁奖时间。。。。。（其实发生很多很多事很多很多对白我都没有力气详细记录。真得很抱歉。不过我觉得自己够长气了的。。。）开始办初中组的奖了。大家都说，至少进到前五名吧，不然我们这个“全国冠军”就糗大了。大吃鬼和那个嘉绮就拼命拿相机拍什么拍。。。（结果拍到丑到要死。。。）人家紧张的样子都已经不是很好看了，你们还要让这丑陋的时刻永远记录在电子世界里头？! 颁到最后几个安慰奖的时候，l两次司仪先生都念：“怡保。。。育才国中。。。。”“怡保。。。培南国中。。。。”吓得我们两次的肋骨差点被心脏撞破了。。。对于完全没有等待过拿奖的人，而且还是期望那么高的比赛， 那种感觉应该是像对北极熊说沙漠有多热的感觉吧。。。
轮到了颁五强的时候了。。。嘉绮和大吃鬼还在拼命拍照。。。。我逼不得已只好很粗暴地把我的相机转个角度， 大声喝她们不准再拍了。到了第四名，司仪大哥报道：怡保。。。三德中学！！！！
那时的我已经和我的朋友们抱成一团，腿都软了。等了等，咦？第三名不是我们哦。。。。接着我们就被请上台了。当时我有一个强烈的预感我们会以微差落败给第一名。又是只念第一名先。。。好了。： 由马来西亚教育部主催，霹雳州教育局主办， 霹雳州国中教师联谊会，霹雳华小教联会协办第六届（二零零九年度）霹雳州中小学华语诗歌朗诵比赛， 初中组的冠军是。。。。。太平华联国中！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
喂喂喂，怎么没有失落的感觉？不是期待很久了吗？应该伤心得哭才是呀。。。我不知道，只觉得自己当时笑得很灿烂，很自然，去和颁奖人握手，看着观众为太平华联国中鼓掌。。。。。。。。。。。
真的好轻松。。。。有人会问，为什么？因为。。。。。。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。
八月十日是预考日期！！！！！如果去比赛就惨了！！！！！笨蛋！！！！！好了，我发完神经了。。。。就是这种感觉。。。微妙的感觉不加以述说。虽然听了很多人说真的是微差败北，自己也有一丁点的不甘，但我们都经历过的，不用再强求了, 对吧？
2009年7月4日星期六
好不紧张的诗歌朗诵比赛part2
是的上次已经谈过了紧张的诗歌朗诵比赛part 1，这次的part2就没有那么的精彩了。取而代之的是淡如水的感觉。是我麻木了吗？还是我没有了想要硬的斗志？咦，不对呀，上次拿到冠军这次应该自强不息不是吗？我不知道，但是比赛的详细情况依然历历在目，因为它发生了不久。
早上八点半，老师把我们都叫来试穿几件好气派的大衣。我生平第一次穿那么隆重的大衣。但是由于种种的因素，穿不成那件新新的味道，温暖华丽的大衣。（好想你哦，大衣。。。。呜呜。。。。）不过穿回校服的唯一好处是，闷热的天气不会把我焖成梅菜扣肉。哈哈。。。去练我们的诗歌一会儿，然后老师就说，你们的我也不知道要改什么了，看得麻木了。。。。 ：（ 怎么办？难道我们已成了朗诵诗歌的机器人？
到了要上车的时间了，哇，透过老师才知道，咏恩和依欣都是教师节晚宴的司仪， 好羡慕。。。 不知道自己什么时候才能踏上司仪这条道路。不过想想，自己的经验不足啦，要多多累积多多学习才有出头天。（谁叫他们是出了名的名嘴？？）哈哈。。。 面包车的司机大人，不知道要从哪个门口近来接我们这几位小姐，花了好多时间，几番折腾，最后还是要我们从食堂门口走出去？都不懂为什么要交人开门什么的，真是麻烦。。。。。
好了，上了车，都没什么事做。。。 要打呼噜了。。。。。这时却想起我们大概十点四十分上了车，却好像要在十一点半到万邦刁湾华小报到。这是我们的印度人司机老也就说：你们应该早点上车的嘛。。。。他便说边摇头，活像个大头公仔。。。。接着便飞车一路到金宝万邦刁湾华小——我们的目的地。
到了那儿，哦哦哦。。。。。。。 我们好像是最迟到的那件学校哦。。。 不过中学的诗歌朗诵队伍还没开比赛呢。。。哈哈。哈？！还有二十多对小学没比啊？（注明：我们到达的时候是近十一点五十分的。。。 午餐时间占用一小时，估计一点开始继续小学组的比赛，紧接着后面是初中组的比赛。如果平均小学一组要占用十分钟（包括介绍，上台，鞠躬，朗诵诗歌，鞠躬，下台，评审写分数等琐碎细节）
26t x 600s=15600s / 60s = 260minutes = 4.3333333333hrs
太恐怖了吧？？？？？？ 要我们再等四个多小时才到初中组比赛。。。 而且我们还不是第一组叻。。。。。不过庆幸的是，小学组的没有占用我所预算的十分钟之久，有些组甚至两分钟就下来了。哇哈哈，如果每一组都减少五分之四的时间，那……
等了好……………………………………………………………………………………………….久，还是没到我们。结果哦我们全都散步去了。（我都说嘛，一点都不紧张，还参观校园一圈。）哈哈，那时刚好听到eric在朗诵他的诗歌， 听起来挺不错的，不愧是eric。。。。。
是啦是啦，我删了很多很闷的细节，是到我们——圣母国中的初中诗歌朗诵上场啦！也没有很戏剧性的跌了一跤，搞得自己很傻什么的。只是好像平时的练习一样，朗完了我们的诗歌。
就这样成了冠军。。。。。。。。。是麻木了吧？没感觉。。。。。走上台的时候，是完全没有感觉的。脸上的是礼貌性的笑意而已。这就是又累人又不紧张的诗歌朗诵。。。。 “州赛就会有气氛的啦。。。”不只谁说的。。。
希望是这样咯。。。。
早上八点半，老师把我们都叫来试穿几件好气派的大衣。我生平第一次穿那么隆重的大衣。但是由于种种的因素，穿不成那件新新的味道，温暖华丽的大衣。（好想你哦，大衣。。。。呜呜。。。。）不过穿回校服的唯一好处是，闷热的天气不会把我焖成梅菜扣肉。哈哈。。。去练我们的诗歌一会儿，然后老师就说，你们的我也不知道要改什么了，看得麻木了。。。。 ：（ 怎么办？难道我们已成了朗诵诗歌的机器人？
到了要上车的时间了，哇，透过老师才知道，咏恩和依欣都是教师节晚宴的司仪， 好羡慕。。。 不知道自己什么时候才能踏上司仪这条道路。不过想想，自己的经验不足啦，要多多累积多多学习才有出头天。（谁叫他们是出了名的名嘴？？）哈哈。。。 面包车的司机大人，不知道要从哪个门口近来接我们这几位小姐，花了好多时间，几番折腾，最后还是要我们从食堂门口走出去？都不懂为什么要交人开门什么的，真是麻烦。。。。。
好了，上了车，都没什么事做。。。 要打呼噜了。。。。。这时却想起我们大概十点四十分上了车，却好像要在十一点半到万邦刁湾华小报到。这是我们的印度人司机老也就说：你们应该早点上车的嘛。。。。他便说边摇头，活像个大头公仔。。。。接着便飞车一路到金宝万邦刁湾华小——我们的目的地。
到了那儿，哦哦哦。。。。。。。 我们好像是最迟到的那件学校哦。。。 不过中学的诗歌朗诵队伍还没开比赛呢。。。哈哈。哈？！还有二十多对小学没比啊？（注明：我们到达的时候是近十一点五十分的。。。 午餐时间占用一小时，估计一点开始继续小学组的比赛，紧接着后面是初中组的比赛。如果平均小学一组要占用十分钟（包括介绍，上台，鞠躬，朗诵诗歌，鞠躬，下台，评审写分数等琐碎细节）
26t x 600s=15600s / 60s = 260minutes = 4.3333333333hrs
太恐怖了吧？？？？？？ 要我们再等四个多小时才到初中组比赛。。。 而且我们还不是第一组叻。。。。。不过庆幸的是，小学组的没有占用我所预算的十分钟之久，有些组甚至两分钟就下来了。哇哈哈，如果每一组都减少五分之四的时间，那……
等了好……………………………………………………………………………………………….久，还是没到我们。结果哦我们全都散步去了。（我都说嘛，一点都不紧张，还参观校园一圈。）哈哈，那时刚好听到eric在朗诵他的诗歌， 听起来挺不错的，不愧是eric。。。。。
是啦是啦，我删了很多很闷的细节，是到我们——圣母国中的初中诗歌朗诵上场啦！也没有很戏剧性的跌了一跤，搞得自己很傻什么的。只是好像平时的练习一样，朗完了我们的诗歌。
就这样成了冠军。。。。。。。。。是麻木了吧？没感觉。。。。。走上台的时候，是完全没有感觉的。脸上的是礼貌性的笑意而已。这就是又累人又不紧张的诗歌朗诵。。。。 “州赛就会有气氛的啦。。。”不只谁说的。。。
希望是这样咯。。。。
好紧张的诗歌朗诵比赛part 1
时光飞逝，说的可真是没错。去年刚从全国赛的颁奖典礼走出来，今年又是一个新的开始。其实，基于面子的问题，今年我们没进到全国赛也得进到州赛才行。或许不该对这次的期望太高吧，但是当个全国冠军不是件容易的事情。人人都说我是个悲观主义者，但事实是摆在眼前，你不这样走，只有任人摆布地进行接下来的生活。
回想起去年，我们都是初生之犊，经过一番苦练，才进到区赛，得了第三名。为即将到来的州赛忙得团团转。为什么呢？因为我们学校是首次进入诗歌朗诵州赛。 大家都很担心会出丑，不过越练越有劲，有很明显的进步。
州赛那天，我们都认为自己做得不怎么样，在颁安慰奖的时候，已做好心理准备要上台领奖了，谁知主办当局让我们等了很久，等到最后一个安慰奖颁完了，我们才发觉自己已经是进入三强了。大家差不多同时都说，哇，进到了三强，拿什么奖都毫无遗憾了。（是不是很没有自信呢？大哥，嘻嘻。。。。）过了很多suspense之后，司仪念出了拿第三名学校的名字。怎。。怎么还没到我们学校啊？那时只听到若恒在那儿发神经，蕙琼呆在一边，咏恩傻傻的， 为什么他没有反应的？我大声地喊了一下，说：喂， 剩我们和三德了！！！！！！
哈哈，区赛得第一的三德，现在和我们一起在终极二强了！圣母的又差不多同时说：哇，进到了二强，拿什么奖都毫无遗憾了。（有人看到应该会无奈的说：梁洁瑜，你真不愧是我认识的悲观主义者。。 -_-111) 司仪这时就说什么他只会宣布冠军学校的名字。观众都可以有这段课本说的来形容：众宾团坐。满座寂然，无敢哗者。
司仪就清清了喉：马来西亚教育部主催，霹雳州教育局主办，霹雳教联会及霹雳国中教师联谊会协办（那介绍还真长的不得了）二零零八年第五届霹雳州中小学话语诗歌朗诵比， 初中组的冠军得主是：…………………………………………………………………………………………………..丝丝………….（因为圣母和三德的校名都由S声开始）丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝（怎么圣母跟三德这两个名字有那么难念吗？）圣母女中！！！！！！！！！
太开心了！！！太意想不到！！！！（不过这开心也维持不了多久，因为接下来恐怖的训练……. 无法想象……)
就这样，我们进到了全国赛………
就这样，我们进入了五强…….
就这样，我们拿到了全国冠军……..（但也很快就被冷水浇灭了…丝丝……）
回想起去年，我们都是初生之犊，经过一番苦练，才进到区赛，得了第三名。为即将到来的州赛忙得团团转。为什么呢？因为我们学校是首次进入诗歌朗诵州赛。 大家都很担心会出丑，不过越练越有劲，有很明显的进步。
州赛那天，我们都认为自己做得不怎么样，在颁安慰奖的时候，已做好心理准备要上台领奖了，谁知主办当局让我们等了很久，等到最后一个安慰奖颁完了，我们才发觉自己已经是进入三强了。大家差不多同时都说，哇，进到了三强，拿什么奖都毫无遗憾了。（是不是很没有自信呢？大哥，嘻嘻。。。。）过了很多suspense之后，司仪念出了拿第三名学校的名字。怎。。怎么还没到我们学校啊？那时只听到若恒在那儿发神经，蕙琼呆在一边，咏恩傻傻的， 为什么他没有反应的？我大声地喊了一下，说：喂， 剩我们和三德了！！！！！！
哈哈，区赛得第一的三德，现在和我们一起在终极二强了！圣母的又差不多同时说：哇，进到了二强，拿什么奖都毫无遗憾了。（有人看到应该会无奈的说：梁洁瑜，你真不愧是我认识的悲观主义者。。 -_-111) 司仪这时就说什么他只会宣布冠军学校的名字。观众都可以有这段课本说的来形容：众宾团坐。满座寂然，无敢哗者。
司仪就清清了喉：马来西亚教育部主催，霹雳州教育局主办，霹雳教联会及霹雳国中教师联谊会协办（那介绍还真长的不得了）二零零八年第五届霹雳州中小学话语诗歌朗诵比， 初中组的冠军得主是：…………………………………………………………………………………………………..丝丝………….（因为圣母和三德的校名都由S声开始）丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝丝（怎么圣母跟三德这两个名字有那么难念吗？）圣母女中！！！！！！！！！
太开心了！！！太意想不到！！！！（不过这开心也维持不了多久，因为接下来恐怖的训练……. 无法想象……)
就这样，我们进到了全国赛………
就这样，我们进入了五强…….
就这样，我们拿到了全国冠军……..（但也很快就被冷水浇灭了…丝丝……）
灵感，源自生活-- 最远的距离
他拿了一篇自创的作文给我看，让我读了不禁觉得心酸。好剧烈的心理搏斗，好悲惨的命运。这恰恰描写了我的人生，原来我们是命运相同的生活傀儡，逃不出这个狭窄的圈圈，必须面对人心的险恶，人心的变幻莫测。他好聪明，又长得好清秀，是个坚强面对生活的秀才。我们的心，贴得好近好近。这也就是我为什么一直都觉得“同性相斥，异性相吸”是错误的说法。我也是个爱创作的人，发现他的创作风格都偏向忧郁风格的，我的风格则是偏向写实但很戏剧化的散文故事，但同样都是用优美的文字来表达内心所想的，我被她成熟的思想吸引了，所以怎么可以说是同性相斥呢？
从给他看了我的作文那天起，他，是个很明白我的人，因为我们的生活经验是那么的相似，我开始注意他了。这是很奇妙的心理变化，对一个正常的青少年来说，或许不需要怎样分析便接受了这个现象。但，我是个感情高度敏感脆弱的人，对于细微的变化也会思考一番的。我认为，我只是在乎他吧，一世人有多少次能找到和自己合得来的朋友呢？但，要是他只把我当泛泛之交那我怎么办？虽然是合得来，但我们也只相处了那短短几个月，我还不了解她。万一我说错什么话，这友情没了，我该怎么办？我一直安慰自己，这是我注意他的理由，不是别的什么……
远处眺望，不见他的身影。饶了学校好多好多圈，都找不着他。手里捧着沉甸甸的书还没还呢。算了，一个小人儿怎能耽误我这大人物的时间，一寸光阴一寸金呀。脚往图书馆的楼梯上爬，可心里还想着要在等等他的出现，说不定自己刚踏进图书馆，他就在哪个角落现身了。我把五本加起来有两千多页的参考书堆在图书管理员的面前，吓得他把笔都掉了。原来他在这里。踏破铁鞋无觅处，原来他……呃，我好像看到一些情景的，怎么那么快就忘了？没关系，我做我自己的事就好。
他说：我睡前想对你说一句话……鸢，你是我的心上人……
在那一刻，世界停止了。
我…我是他心上人？？该说什么啊？天哪，怎么让我落到这种无言的地步？
我结结巴巴地说：我 … 不是不喜欢你，但…这是不对的。你不能辜负你的恋人（不是我），她知道会很受伤的。你不能表现得如此不认真，你的生活不是只有你一个……
我想，那时应该是轮到你的世界停止了吧。
你缓慢冷静地说：鸢，她不是我的恋人，你误会了。那个是他一厢情愿而已。我相信你也是喜欢我的。你那么关心我，疼我……你给我的感觉是温暖的，安全的。。我很确定我已经不是那个不认真的小孩了，我的直觉告诉我，我们会永远地走下去。
我说：在我眼中，你永远都是我疼的一个长不大的小孩。我也看过很多跟你在一起的人，都是不持久的。我一直都对这友情不太有信心。你很容易忘记过去，而我不能。你能很潇洒的继续过日子，但我会哀叹事情的戏剧性演变。我不能适应一旦投入但必须立即退出的痛。我虽然是个四方头，但我看太多了，也太了解你了。
你说：你不觉得我为你变了吗？我的好朋友中只有你陪了我最久。在你怀里，我是哪个不需要披上任何保护膜的，单纯的我。一个简单又需要你的小孩。我从来都没有像这样那么信任一个人。让我也付出一些，好吗？你一直都在我心里。我要陪伴你。即使你不接受我，我这方付出的感情永远都不变，我会一直陪在你身边，直到你找到幸福为止。
接下来，是一段沉默。别人听不见的沉默。属于我们心灵沉淀的沉默。一种自己世界里的沉默……
仿佛听到热泪淌下的声音,仿佛听到了墙壁被打破的声音。啊，是那道我预言了无法打破的墙壁爆裂的声音,而墙壁断瓦残骸下的那条界线，是我永远跨不过的一条界,是我自己施的结界……
你努力的吸鼻子，像个小孩似的。啊天，你哭了不是说你不轻易流泪的吗？难道我值得你去为我流泪？
我心软了。
我清了清喉咙说：时间不早了，快睡吧。呃，明天你要去上课呢，我也一样。乖，这事就搁着吧，先应付了学习再说。
你轻得像呓语的声音在我耳边响起：你不要因为我说的话而离开我好吗？我会受不了的。不要为我做出感情上付出的改变，好吗？我要睡了，你也早睡吧。不要为我熬夜，也不要想太多，好吗？晚安。我…爱…你……
之后，你轻轻地，轻轻地，挂上了电话。电话里是一片的寂静。
“墙壁被打破了，怎么办？我担心的事会发生吗？但是我…我… 唉……”
我拿着话筒好久了，才轻轻地说：你也是我的心上人，我也爱你。
梦醒了。
是梦，神奇的周公永远会把你心里最想的东西表达给你看，给你听。我喜欢的你, 把我当心上人……哎，是日有所思夜有所梦吧？但这样做个梦我也足够了，因为我知道那不可能会是真的，在现实生活中，有道我们自己打不破的墙。那道墙一旦被打破，会发生什么事我们自己很清楚。我们在这个世界中，自己的脑袋是复杂的；只有在自己安静的世界里，想的东西可以很简单。我想不顾一切地接受，但，我不能只顾自己，这世界不是由你和我组成的。要和大自然搏斗是很困难的，不是说只要有坚持就能完成的。墙，墙，墙……
每根思绪不安地跳动着，头发都好像掉光似的，但头依然感觉沉重……
从给他看了我的作文那天起，他，是个很明白我的人，因为我们的生活经验是那么的相似，我开始注意他了。这是很奇妙的心理变化，对一个正常的青少年来说，或许不需要怎样分析便接受了这个现象。但，我是个感情高度敏感脆弱的人，对于细微的变化也会思考一番的。我认为，我只是在乎他吧，一世人有多少次能找到和自己合得来的朋友呢？但，要是他只把我当泛泛之交那我怎么办？虽然是合得来，但我们也只相处了那短短几个月，我还不了解她。万一我说错什么话，这友情没了，我该怎么办？我一直安慰自己，这是我注意他的理由，不是别的什么……
远处眺望，不见他的身影。饶了学校好多好多圈，都找不着他。手里捧着沉甸甸的书还没还呢。算了，一个小人儿怎能耽误我这大人物的时间，一寸光阴一寸金呀。脚往图书馆的楼梯上爬，可心里还想着要在等等他的出现，说不定自己刚踏进图书馆，他就在哪个角落现身了。我把五本加起来有两千多页的参考书堆在图书管理员的面前，吓得他把笔都掉了。原来他在这里。踏破铁鞋无觅处，原来他……呃，我好像看到一些情景的，怎么那么快就忘了？没关系，我做我自己的事就好。
他说：我睡前想对你说一句话……鸢，你是我的心上人……
在那一刻，世界停止了。
我…我是他心上人？？该说什么啊？天哪，怎么让我落到这种无言的地步？
我结结巴巴地说：我 … 不是不喜欢你，但…这是不对的。你不能辜负你的恋人（不是我），她知道会很受伤的。你不能表现得如此不认真，你的生活不是只有你一个……
我想，那时应该是轮到你的世界停止了吧。
你缓慢冷静地说：鸢，她不是我的恋人，你误会了。那个是他一厢情愿而已。我相信你也是喜欢我的。你那么关心我，疼我……你给我的感觉是温暖的，安全的。。我很确定我已经不是那个不认真的小孩了，我的直觉告诉我，我们会永远地走下去。
我说：在我眼中，你永远都是我疼的一个长不大的小孩。我也看过很多跟你在一起的人，都是不持久的。我一直都对这友情不太有信心。你很容易忘记过去，而我不能。你能很潇洒的继续过日子，但我会哀叹事情的戏剧性演变。我不能适应一旦投入但必须立即退出的痛。我虽然是个四方头，但我看太多了，也太了解你了。
你说：你不觉得我为你变了吗？我的好朋友中只有你陪了我最久。在你怀里，我是哪个不需要披上任何保护膜的，单纯的我。一个简单又需要你的小孩。我从来都没有像这样那么信任一个人。让我也付出一些，好吗？你一直都在我心里。我要陪伴你。即使你不接受我，我这方付出的感情永远都不变，我会一直陪在你身边，直到你找到幸福为止。
接下来，是一段沉默。别人听不见的沉默。属于我们心灵沉淀的沉默。一种自己世界里的沉默……
仿佛听到热泪淌下的声音,仿佛听到了墙壁被打破的声音。啊，是那道我预言了无法打破的墙壁爆裂的声音,而墙壁断瓦残骸下的那条界线，是我永远跨不过的一条界,是我自己施的结界……
你努力的吸鼻子，像个小孩似的。啊天，你哭了不是说你不轻易流泪的吗？难道我值得你去为我流泪？
我心软了。
我清了清喉咙说：时间不早了，快睡吧。呃，明天你要去上课呢，我也一样。乖，这事就搁着吧，先应付了学习再说。
你轻得像呓语的声音在我耳边响起：你不要因为我说的话而离开我好吗？我会受不了的。不要为我做出感情上付出的改变，好吗？我要睡了，你也早睡吧。不要为我熬夜，也不要想太多，好吗？晚安。我…爱…你……
之后，你轻轻地，轻轻地，挂上了电话。电话里是一片的寂静。
“墙壁被打破了，怎么办？我担心的事会发生吗？但是我…我… 唉……”
我拿着话筒好久了，才轻轻地说：你也是我的心上人，我也爱你。
梦醒了。
是梦，神奇的周公永远会把你心里最想的东西表达给你看，给你听。我喜欢的你, 把我当心上人……哎，是日有所思夜有所梦吧？但这样做个梦我也足够了，因为我知道那不可能会是真的，在现实生活中，有道我们自己打不破的墙。那道墙一旦被打破，会发生什么事我们自己很清楚。我们在这个世界中，自己的脑袋是复杂的；只有在自己安静的世界里，想的东西可以很简单。我想不顾一切地接受，但，我不能只顾自己，这世界不是由你和我组成的。要和大自然搏斗是很困难的，不是说只要有坚持就能完成的。墙，墙，墙……
每根思绪不安地跳动着，头发都好像掉光似的，但头依然感觉沉重……
心理的狮子this song… is a really nice song…
一夕改變的命運
一夜長大的必須
渺小的自己
假裝平靜巨大的孤寂
卻騷動不已
我們緊握著手心
眼睛微笑成星星
在子夜輪替
守護指引
外面太冰冷
就披上風衣
帶著站在心裡的獅子
穿過更像叢林的城市
沒有意志
就沒有鑰匙
能打開未來做最想做的事
跟著跑在心裡的獅子
優雅但卻勇敢地嘗試
擁有支持
才擁有天使完成
我一個人做不到的事
有陪伴的人不害怕
不害怕的人最瀟灑
只要邁的步伐夠大
被貼的標籤會飛走吧
有人唱这首歌给我听，结果呢。。。。
我哭了。。。
一夜長大的必須
渺小的自己
假裝平靜巨大的孤寂
卻騷動不已
我們緊握著手心
眼睛微笑成星星
在子夜輪替
守護指引
外面太冰冷
就披上風衣
帶著站在心裡的獅子
穿過更像叢林的城市
沒有意志
就沒有鑰匙
能打開未來做最想做的事
跟著跑在心裡的獅子
優雅但卻勇敢地嘗試
擁有支持
才擁有天使完成
我一個人做不到的事
有陪伴的人不害怕
不害怕的人最瀟灑
只要邁的步伐夠大
被貼的標籤會飛走吧
有人唱这首歌给我听，结果呢。。。。
我哭了。。。
我病了。。。还好有人明白。。。
你知道病了的感觉又没人关心是多么的令人沮丧。。。再加上现在猪流感肆虐，人家都不太敢接近你一步。。。现在我咳得厉害，头也疼得快撕裂了，还有废废的美术要交。怎么画？对一个没什么在意这科科目的人（我），真是个莫大的痛楚。。 没有功课的时间竟要去画画，不能坐下来好好温习功课。不过吾很爱赢，爱拼，那低分绝不是我的作风。。 什么都得做得最好。。。
有人关心我了！耶！他发来个信息说：“你好吗？看你在学校很不舒服的样子，要不要吃panadol?” 什么？我不吃panadol的，抱歉。。。 从小被灌输那是毒品的我特别抗拒这类药品。。。
大哥说：“世界上所有东西都有害人体，只是看害多害少。”
大哥是说得没错啦。。。不过我还是粒panadol不沾。很矛盾对吧？一下说要人关心，却又抗拒别人的关心， 洁瑜啊，你是病傻了吗？
大吃鬼说：“让我抱抱吧，那你就不会冷了。我会让你体内的寒气全部散去。” 是啊， 好暖哦。。。谢谢你在我需要的时候把暖炉借来给我用用。你才是最明白我需要什么的人。。。
突然有种病到很开心的感觉。。。
有人关心我了！耶！他发来个信息说：“你好吗？看你在学校很不舒服的样子，要不要吃panadol?” 什么？我不吃panadol的，抱歉。。。 从小被灌输那是毒品的我特别抗拒这类药品。。。
大哥说：“世界上所有东西都有害人体，只是看害多害少。”
大哥是说得没错啦。。。不过我还是粒panadol不沾。很矛盾对吧？一下说要人关心，却又抗拒别人的关心， 洁瑜啊，你是病傻了吗？
大吃鬼说：“让我抱抱吧，那你就不会冷了。我会让你体内的寒气全部散去。” 是啊， 好暖哦。。。谢谢你在我需要的时候把暖炉借来给我用用。你才是最明白我需要什么的人。。。
突然有种病到很开心的感觉。。。
大哥，谢咯。。。。
当小的的确压力很大。。。尤其是当你有两位杰出的姐姐当你的楷模，你更加不忍心让父母失望而去当个普普通通的人。。。不过大哥，谢谢你的鼓励，因为不要小看自己这几句话很重要。。。的确很重要。。。
说到强项呢，我自己也不清楚我到底强在哪。。因为好像每样事情都占了一点点的天分。。。不过呢没有一样精深。。没有嘉绮成绩那般标青，没有大姐弹钢琴弹得那么出色， 没有二姐的数学头脑，没有嘉梅画的画那么出神入化，也没有小矮人跑得快， 更没有大哥那么牙尖嘴利咯。。。。但大致上我都干得不错耶。。。。
这就是我的烦恼。。。我不想庸庸碌碌地过一生，也想干番大事业。。。但，我不是最杰出的，该怎么办？我在大家耀眼杰出的成绩散发的光芒里，迷失了。。。。。。。。。。。。
昨天，大哥说：别小看自己。
我不是想小看自己，我也相信人的潜能是很多样化，很神奇的，会在你不留意时爆发。。。。 但，面对别人看到渺小的自己，会是多么的自卑，羡慕。。。。
大哥，你重复的叮咛，重新唤醒我心中的那支雏鹰，她在蛋壳里沉睡了好久好久。。他将展翅试飞，重新探索，发觉自己的潜能。。。 嘿，谢谢你咯，大哥。。。
说到强项呢，我自己也不清楚我到底强在哪。。因为好像每样事情都占了一点点的天分。。。不过呢没有一样精深。。没有嘉绮成绩那般标青，没有大姐弹钢琴弹得那么出色， 没有二姐的数学头脑，没有嘉梅画的画那么出神入化，也没有小矮人跑得快， 更没有大哥那么牙尖嘴利咯。。。。但大致上我都干得不错耶。。。。
这就是我的烦恼。。。我不想庸庸碌碌地过一生，也想干番大事业。。。但，我不是最杰出的，该怎么办？我在大家耀眼杰出的成绩散发的光芒里，迷失了。。。。。。。。。。。。
昨天，大哥说：别小看自己。
我不是想小看自己，我也相信人的潜能是很多样化，很神奇的，会在你不留意时爆发。。。。 但，面对别人看到渺小的自己，会是多么的自卑，羡慕。。。。
大哥，你重复的叮咛，重新唤醒我心中的那支雏鹰，她在蛋壳里沉睡了好久好久。。他将展翅试飞，重新探索，发觉自己的潜能。。。 嘿，谢谢你咯，大哥。。。
dcg, nothing can part us 4eva…
dcg.. its nice to befriend you…….. u are the angel in my life……. ur smile is soothing to my boiling hot temper, ur advice is like arrows, so precisely shot to my problems….
its sad to know thet u are leavin me……..when it is the time, maybe i cant take it,maybe i will cry, but nothing will part us forever….
i will always remember the warm hug u gave me was like an anti depressant, your big black eyes gave out calming effects like the expensive black pearls……. i could never forget you….
i dont wanna miss a thing- aerosmith
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like thisI just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing
its sad to know thet u are leavin me……..when it is the time, maybe i cant take it,maybe i will cry, but nothing will part us forever….
i will always remember the warm hug u gave me was like an anti depressant, your big black eyes gave out calming effects like the expensive black pearls……. i could never forget you….
i dont wanna miss a thing- aerosmith
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like thisI just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing
i am a human, same like you too….
why?
why do you want to make my life so miserable…. i gave more than i took from you, why do you still want to suspect that i did not treat you truly? you were a friend, i tolerate and tolerate with you, bcoz i didint want to lose a friend. do you think u can hurt me and just go away like that? do u really think that sorries can heal the bad cut wound on my trust on you? everyone knows, sorry no cure…
THIS IS A POEM FOR YOU…
it isnt a game, for you to play,
it is about the heart,and soul and trust.
friendship is precious,and i totally treasure,
but dignity speaks,there’s something more than that.
now,there is no more chance,
for u to aim and shoot,
the angel gave me wings, for me to fly away from you.
why do you want to make my life so miserable…. i gave more than i took from you, why do you still want to suspect that i did not treat you truly? you were a friend, i tolerate and tolerate with you, bcoz i didint want to lose a friend. do you think u can hurt me and just go away like that? do u really think that sorries can heal the bad cut wound on my trust on you? everyone knows, sorry no cure…
THIS IS A POEM FOR YOU…
it isnt a game, for you to play,
it is about the heart,and soul and trust.
friendship is precious,and i totally treasure,
but dignity speaks,there’s something more than that.
now,there is no more chance,
for u to aim and shoot,
the angel gave me wings, for me to fly away from you.
achooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ya, i had a cold……….
romance says: no, some one u love is thinking of u…
devil says: some one is cursing on u…….
IQ says: ur germs are travelling 100miles per hour u know
nose says: i am wet…..
the mucus says: we want to go out and play!!
haih i said: everyone please shut up, i am going to sleep….. i am sick…..
romance says: no, some one u love is thinking of u…
devil says: some one is cursing on u…….
IQ says: ur germs are travelling 100miles per hour u know
nose says: i am wet…..
the mucus says: we want to go out and play!!
haih i said: everyone please shut up, i am going to sleep….. i am sick…..
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