felt that i am talking crap in the previous posts. but so what? thats what i feel. nothing wrong.
i'm sorry i din make it.but i will continue to learn for sure.just felt weird again.
that may be a relief. that maybe a burden. that maybe positive to look at but it's negative side is also intimidating. aim high, but with no expectations. is that correct?i don't know. i tried hard to force back tears while trying to answer the phone. is that THAT difficult? it's just small matter.
i really don't mind.
really?
yes.which has a no written on its back.
2010年2月27日星期六
2010年2月26日星期五
obstacles
there are many obstacles throughout our journey. we tend to make stupid mistakes when it comes to the important part. guess what? we still will make it to the end.even the process maybe painful, hilarious or depressing. we undergo it many times and we become -- painless....
its too painful to hear something that makes you feel its not worth it.it's too hard to let go before you reach the real junction.and it feels so bad seeing someone so good leaving.its....a very sourish taste.....
face that obstacle or not? take this chance or not? sometimes it is also not for you to decide.
there is too many factors... too many, too many....
its too painful to hear something that makes you feel its not worth it.it's too hard to let go before you reach the real junction.and it feels so bad seeing someone so good leaving.its....a very sourish taste.....
face that obstacle or not? take this chance or not? sometimes it is also not for you to decide.
there is too many factors... too many, too many....
2010年2月22日星期一
2010年2月19日星期五
stand up
stand up, is a pose as easy as ABC for most of the people.look around us, who can't stand up easily without other's help? but there is some people who have disabilities who limited their movement, and therefore they can't stand.
there is one story i've seen before.one man, without legs and arms, lived independently. it was on tv and on video clips to encourage people to be strong to be tough to learn to withstand the storms.
they can stand up,so can we.
easily we can stand, so when we cannot stand we are just finding a reason not to stand. others who cannot stand tried very hard just to stand. if they can, so can we.
never give up easily on yourself. you are unique and therefore you can control what you want.there will always be friends who support you all the way. don't let them down.
friend, regards to you. you shall stand. so shall we stand with you.
ALTOGETHER, WE STAND.
there is one story i've seen before.one man, without legs and arms, lived independently. it was on tv and on video clips to encourage people to be strong to be tough to learn to withstand the storms.
they can stand up,so can we.
easily we can stand, so when we cannot stand we are just finding a reason not to stand. others who cannot stand tried very hard just to stand. if they can, so can we.
never give up easily on yourself. you are unique and therefore you can control what you want.there will always be friends who support you all the way. don't let them down.
friend, regards to you. you shall stand. so shall we stand with you.
ALTOGETHER, WE STAND.
2010年2月17日星期三
support 4 u^^
i definitely support my friends all the time.so just go along your principles,nothing is wrong.sometimes we can't care too much about others while we ourselves are struggling with our own business.
friends have to support friends. if not what are friends for?
just found out that sometimes things are not what we've seen are.cause i am doing the 名句精华。
横看成岭侧成峰，远近高低各不同。不识庐山真面目，只缘身在此山中。
this i guess you all know what it means.lots of people can only see one piece of the mountain when they are inside the mountain.from different aspects we see things differently too.one same mountain, thousands and millions of adjective phrases.it is no control of it.everyone can be correct and wrong at the same time.it is not definite.
whatever you say, i support you.anything i don't agree, i tell you from my different perspective.
that's me my friend.hope you can get it^^
friends have to support friends. if not what are friends for?
just found out that sometimes things are not what we've seen are.cause i am doing the 名句精华。
横看成岭侧成峰，远近高低各不同。不识庐山真面目，只缘身在此山中。
this i guess you all know what it means.lots of people can only see one piece of the mountain when they are inside the mountain.from different aspects we see things differently too.one same mountain, thousands and millions of adjective phrases.it is no control of it.everyone can be correct and wrong at the same time.it is not definite.
whatever you say, i support you.anything i don't agree, i tell you from my different perspective.
that's me my friend.hope you can get it^^
Just Dance
guess what, i am facing the neck of bottle of my life right now.
1st thing: ignored
i was ignored these few months or days. don't know the exact reason why...maybe is because of my plumpish figure?(it could be one of the factors...)maybe it is my lame character?( actually i don't think i am lame at all) maybe i am too talkative?(but i think i am not beyond the line.)maybe i am too pushy.....in all things...i was ignored by lots of people who i wanted to share with.wanting to reconnect and rebond but still---- avail.
2nd thing:scolded
yes, scolding is one of the things i still get alot these few days.i know i am troublesome but i am trying to improve.whoever says when they look at me they have a stomach full of gas go and fart.dont keep it.but i am not going behind your back and take it all.i can analyse and make the truth out of it.please say the truth and don't add something useless in it.scolding is something i do not often but i don't keep it. being scolded is something i get it very very often but i keep the person who scolds me in my heart not the issue..(gosh, there must be something wrong with my analytical skill.)
3rd thing:stressed
i am very stressed for the time being. this plump sweet potato might be smiling all day but actually it is already full of wormholes in it.lots of thing coming and i cannot say it out loud.no no.i can keep it i can keep it i can keep it.then i become a bottle of secrets.when i break, ohno.... so don't break me up.have to talk with little voices these days. felt very uncomfortable.
4th thing:stacked
homework,responsibilities all stacked unorganisely in piles.picture it with me on top of it. cannot get down unless i finish it all... go, picture it.
listened to the song Just Dance, feel that my english is extremely bad 4 not knowing what Lady Gaga is singing except for the word just dance.
life is like a dance too.the music never stops for you.if you stop halfway you just make a fool out of yourself.finish the dance even you think it is humiliating.maybe people can see the potential out of you whether it is comedious, elegant or entertaining.go with the music, just dance.
1st thing: ignored
i was ignored these few months or days. don't know the exact reason why...maybe is because of my plumpish figure?(it could be one of the factors...)maybe it is my lame character?( actually i don't think i am lame at all) maybe i am too talkative?(but i think i am not beyond the line.)maybe i am too pushy.....in all things...i was ignored by lots of people who i wanted to share with.wanting to reconnect and rebond but still---- avail.
2nd thing:scolded
yes, scolding is one of the things i still get alot these few days.i know i am troublesome but i am trying to improve.whoever says when they look at me they have a stomach full of gas go and fart.dont keep it.but i am not going behind your back and take it all.i can analyse and make the truth out of it.please say the truth and don't add something useless in it.scolding is something i do not often but i don't keep it. being scolded is something i get it very very often but i keep the person who scolds me in my heart not the issue..(gosh, there must be something wrong with my analytical skill.)
3rd thing:stressed
i am very stressed for the time being. this plump sweet potato might be smiling all day but actually it is already full of wormholes in it.lots of thing coming and i cannot say it out loud.no no.i can keep it i can keep it i can keep it.then i become a bottle of secrets.when i break, ohno.... so don't break me up.have to talk with little voices these days. felt very uncomfortable.
4th thing:stacked
homework,responsibilities all stacked unorganisely in piles.picture it with me on top of it. cannot get down unless i finish it all... go, picture it.
listened to the song Just Dance, feel that my english is extremely bad 4 not knowing what Lady Gaga is singing except for the word just dance.
life is like a dance too.the music never stops for you.if you stop halfway you just make a fool out of yourself.finish the dance even you think it is humiliating.maybe people can see the potential out of you whether it is comedious, elegant or entertaining.go with the music, just dance.
2010年2月16日星期二
2010年2月15日星期一
i don't want to grow up...
there's a lump in my heart that i don't know how to express it out loud.
i am afraid of growing up...i don't want to be an adult...there is too much responsibilities waiting for me in the future.i don't know how to handle it and i am afraid i will make a mess out of it...i don't want to grow up...
there is a sorrow feeling that occured after everything i dreamed of comes to me.there wasnt the beautiful feeling that will come to me but fear that conquered me.... i don't want to grow up.i can't handle politics.i hate to do something that is fake but it needs to be done without me willing to do it.i don't want to smile to someone whom i really don't think he/she deserves a smile from me.i want a real face, no double masks hiding , shading from the light of truth.
there is fear in humans..fear of all truths..when there is a mistake and that is a truth, they can't take it.they accuse people of suspecting their abilities and so on.the world is not in peace.there is no trust between humans anymore.everyone fight like mad for power, fame, status and fonds...
i don't want to go in the world yet.maybe there is a place of peace, warmth and generosity yet there is still reality of faces with evil grins and sharp thinking racing all over the clock to beat down the best among the best.
the world is complicated.when i grow up, i will meet the whole of it, face to face.am i able to change it? am i going to strive in this evil force?
politics
friends
status
fame
luxury
academics
co curricular
self improvement
i am tired....
i am afraid of growing up...i don't want to be an adult...there is too much responsibilities waiting for me in the future.i don't know how to handle it and i am afraid i will make a mess out of it...i don't want to grow up...
there is a sorrow feeling that occured after everything i dreamed of comes to me.there wasnt the beautiful feeling that will come to me but fear that conquered me.... i don't want to grow up.i can't handle politics.i hate to do something that is fake but it needs to be done without me willing to do it.i don't want to smile to someone whom i really don't think he/she deserves a smile from me.i want a real face, no double masks hiding , shading from the light of truth.
there is fear in humans..fear of all truths..when there is a mistake and that is a truth, they can't take it.they accuse people of suspecting their abilities and so on.the world is not in peace.there is no trust between humans anymore.everyone fight like mad for power, fame, status and fonds...
i don't want to go in the world yet.maybe there is a place of peace, warmth and generosity yet there is still reality of faces with evil grins and sharp thinking racing all over the clock to beat down the best among the best.
the world is complicated.when i grow up, i will meet the whole of it, face to face.am i able to change it? am i going to strive in this evil force?
politics
friends
status
fame
luxury
academics
co curricular
self improvement
i am tired....
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