stressed out

its really tough these days...i can't picture it months ago and now it has come to me...definitely i know who is more suitable but i couldn't say more because you need people to support you.thank you for supporting me.we all have a long way to learn but time is ticking and i really felt that there is no time for me to breathe and relax.i am very sorry that i let you all down with my results but i had confidence in me while doing the test.it was absolutely shocking.
i totally don't have confidence in people.it doesn't mean i dun trust you that type of confidence.its i dun trust myself in understanding you.people do change as i can see these days.i don't know whether you will be changing the next second or the next day.i just refuse to torture me with these.i can see that you all are very concerned especially this season and i haven't done my best to show out what do i have.i believe in myself but in the same time i just can't bear to be bold.i care for my face really.and when people are totally sensitive it could be out pf control sometimes.
no talking behind backs please...
and what i think i done a quite satisfying job and with all the mistakes i have done i believe i am more careful now.i remember what i have to do.all the things i can't achieve can't come back even i work hard. sometimes just let it be.we all have our circumstances and i did not plead you to understand me.i've done it and i hope you see my work in it.
weaknesses are to be pointed out and to be shared to be a better person.for this i sincerely thank all of you who had done that. whether i am really din cope with my emotions that time or i accept it whole heartedly.i thank you after reviewing everything that helped me, of course.
i try my best as everything has a twist unexpectedly at the end.no one can predict what will happen the next.i believe there is miracle in me and i know i have to potential and i am the person to do it.i just don't know when and where.
p.s. i know you've been a pain in my back and i just can't get you out.i will just allow myself to blend in and accept you as the part of my life.i will try my very best to tolerate with your behaviour.i might be very generous but i also might be very possesive at times.i won't allow you to do anything that is out of my control.beware that you will be banned if you do that.i keep your face for YOU.



last phrase for the day: smile to face the consequences