decorating, planning, cutting, pasting, drawing, nursing.....at the end of the day....

yes, thats all what i had done today....
it is tiring and frustrating, wasting and boring.......
it is not the work i meant, it is the emotions...
it made me feel bad, feel unworthy, feel negatively..........
i am tired, i am sick, because of the ungratefulness of YOU!!!!!!!!
i am grinding my teeth, i am stamping my feet, fighting over the bad power,
cursed on me by YOU....
hate you hate you......
but what can i do?
i can never, ever, getaway from you......